I'm loving the nursery pics
I feel like maybe I should get started, but I can't be bothered
Maia's sleeping with us so her room's not been touched yet; still a guest room with two single beds in it lol.
Love the pictures Karry! The room looks so lovely!
How is everyone? Bought some new bras at the weekend and they're like heaven! Went from a 34DD to a 38D, no wonder they've felt tight underneath my boobs!
Getting so big now, can't see my feet and certainly can't paint my toe nails! Also got a craving for chocolate like i've never had before!
Emma - awesome that you have the place to yourself! When is he back?
xx
Boobs have either shrunk or I'm used to them now - I think it's the latter. Omg and the PAIN when I go into a cold room for too long. Have a mini hot water bottle gets stuffed in my top just to stop the throbbing. I've had it in there all day
Urgh he came back from the first trip, goes to Baltimore on Wednesday for a few days, then is HOPEFULLY gone within two weeks for at least 6wks. Can't wait!
He's majorly upset me this time, always going on about how I don't make an effort any more - can't win either way, like hell am I trying. Moaned that everyone else at the restaurant had makeup on at lunch yesterday apart from me, moaned that I go out of my way to choose outfits that make me look fatter, that I never wear my hair down any more blah blah blah.
Went on about it at regular intervals; fact is, only clothes that fit me now are my sports-type ones. All my other stuff is made to measure stage and off-stage wear that doesn't go anywhere near me while pregnant and I don't see the point in spending loads on a new wardrobe while my body keeps changing and I'm due in 3mos.
The 'restaurant' was not a restaurant; it was a local carvery where all the locals go for Sunday roast. They've all seen me dressed to the nines onstage and TV and they've all seen me on the beach with no makeup on and hair scraped back. They were there to eat dinner and meet with family and friends and I'm sure didn't care about my appearance.
If I'd gone to the trouble of finding something formal to wear, I would have had to get up earlier, and I was exhausted yesterday, as I would have had to style my hair and paint my face. Then I would have been chilly walking round the two markets he dragged me round before lunch. I wore jeans with leggings underneath to keep me warm, and a long jumper. Pretty much what everyone else wears at the market. At the carvery, people are too busy stuffing their faces to expect a fashion show and that's the way I like it.
My hair stylist moved to the mainland last year and after a disaster trim with a so-called professional since then, I've decided to wait until I find someone who is good at handling my hair, rather than have someone butcher it. If he thinks wearing my hair down when it's dry and split-ended is preferable to tying it back in a neat bun, then we're going to have to disagree. And I am not going to the hassle of pinning it all to my head and wearing wigs to the damn market. Until I find a stylist worth keeping, I'm not wearing my hair out just to please him, simple.
Oh yeah, and at the market, he looks at my jacket and goes, "I know you say it's fashionable and expensive, but that jacket's really not nice," (like he's said a dozen times before - probably hates that I continue to wear it). All the while, I'm standing there in a nice fitted Bench fleece, which I like and was expensive but worth the money, and he's standing there in some trashy fleece that looks like it's been stepped on.
And this is the guy gets upset when I don't feel like sex. He's not right in the head, I swear. I'm quite happy being a sex hormone wasteland right now, but his cheek makes me feel vitriolic - does he seriously think I find him anything but repulsive when he behaves like this? Aaaaaaargh!!! My mum says he has womb envy
And she reminded me how her ex/my step-father used to put her down to make himself feel better about himself - even admitted it to her when they split.
So he thinks I should just get over it and I'm extra emotional and hormonal at the moment - it's not even like his words have cut me, more that I'm so enraged he has the cheek to be such a hypocrite and so shallow, that all I can do is be upset about it.
He knows he's being mean and is doing it on purpose, because I said last week how I hate that I don't have makeup to wear (my skintone changes each season and I need my winter stuff!) or any decent clothes to make me feel good, or get my hair to look nice no matter what products I use 'cause all I need is a good cut. I know he's doing it on purpose; he has a horrible nasty streak. He does this and then cooks and cleans, and sings mine and Maia's praises to his clients and colleagues, like it makes up for his bad behaviour.
Aaaaaaaargh!
Back to the baby - I am loving the crazy rolls and other movements she's doing at the moment. She has the odd quiet day, but seems to be having a ball in there, experimenting with all her motor skills. Can't wait to meet her.
How are you all doing with your pregnancies and work and families?
Lilly - Hi there! I hope you had a great weekend. I had to get new bras at the beginning, I think it was from all the progesterone I was taking, but now I'm noticing they are starting to get bigger again. When I was telling my hubby that I had to get some new bras again he said, didn't you just get some? HAHAH Silly men, they don't know a thing about pregnancy. Also, I am still having problems sleeping, while I don't think a pregnancy pillow will solve it, I think it would definitely help. My hubby can't seem to grasp the thought of spending 60 bucks on a pillow that I will only use for the remainder of the 3 months. UGH! I'm getting really frustrated with him on that. I just want to sleep! Any ladies have the pillow and still have issues sleeping. I think this is my one HUGE complaint about being pregnant. My ribs and hips are really starting to get sore. Also, I've been noticing my hips popping a lot lately.
Yeah, it's weird 'cause I'm not sleeping in a different position but I always wake up feeling bruised on the hip and upper arm. And the sleep quality hasn't improved. Having weird dreams too
60 today which means I'm in the 50s tomorrow! 
