Welcome Steph!! That is such a crazy story!
I hope that you get your BFP soon - I have a friend with severe endo as well - she is I think 25 now...She isn't in a relationship, and not yet ready for kids (she kindof adopted her brother's son, because her brother abused him) But I know it will be hard on her when she does start trying, whenever that day comes.
I have minor endo (as far as I know) And they found it when they did a lap/hysteroscopy after my miscarriage...the pictures just show the little black spots on my bladder, Dr burned them as much as she could, but as you know, it is sticky stuff and doesn't just come off
It's nice to have new people here! We all hope you stick around! We are all really close here...like really really close...it's the best thread ever. I tried to kill myself 2 weeks ago, and OH and I are having a very hard time, hardly see each other now...but I couldn't have gotten through it all without these girls.
Jess, that is insane!!!
I am really worried about you now too! Is that balloon still in there? That just doesn't seem right - have you talked to your dr about it?
Megan - Like the new name
I don't know why I care so little about my anonymity lol, but I understand wanting to keep it more private. And about the painkillers - I know fiorocet is magical for migraines (I've possibly only had one, but didn't take that..but know people who get them and swear by it) As far as TTC and painkillers - from what I have learned (since I am on them) Some people will say that the first trimester is the most crucial as far as not being on anything - depending on the drug - others say the 3rd. I just think of all of the people I have known or know who either didn't know they were pregnant, or abused drugs during their pregnancies, and had perfectly healthy babies. I think that being on something mild, like vicodin, which a doctor told me is the safest during pregnancy - half because tylenol is safe, and hydrocodone, while stronger than codeine/tramadol/etc, is milder and safer. TTC can be such a long journey anyways, I have gotten to the point where, you need to live your life in as little misery and as much comfort as you can..because who knows if at the end of the cycle there will be a BFP. I feel the same way about alcohol, too...not heavy or anything...but, if there aren't chromosomal problems with the baby, which would mean nothing you do could hurt it any more, it isn't going to be a good outcome
they are pretty resilient in there. And it is most important with everything (like I started smoking again after my mmc) to cut back slowly...so if you do get on some pain meds, talk to your doctor about the healthiest and safest way to cut back slowly, so as not to shock the baby...I felt horribly guilty doing that with smoking when I got pregnant, and some people will say stop immediately...but that is really dangerous to them. I cut back a lot, then eventually stopped i think like a weekish later.
I am pretty dependent at this point on pain meds, but there is a difference between addiction and dependency...it is like anything else...you body gets used to a substance, medication, anything, and you develop a dependence - there is no way around it. I was an addict at one point, to meth (7 years off that yucky stuff August 26th yay!) but it was more than I couldn't get out of bed or function if i didn't smoke it, it was that i loved the feeling, I would freak out if I was about to run out..I did crazy things like drive to terrible neighborhoods while being up for 3 days, putting myself in some very dangerous situations, people with guns and a dealer that was murdered in a horrific way....That was addiction. I feel very lucky to be able to moderate my drinking and everything now...cause 'they' say that once you are an addict/alcoholic, you can't do anything mood altering again.
Sorry for the book! But considering playing is your job/life - you need to be comfortable doing it. And congrats on the other potential ventures! That sounds awesome! You should make us all a youtube video so we can watch you play
Can you play by ear now? I would loooove to hear Paul Simon's 'Slip sliding away' on the flute..that would be so awesome
Kenna, that baby is so precious! It hurts my heart seeing little babies right now..but congratulations to your sister...I hope you get one soon too!! I'm so glad my younger brother isn't having kids yet...Well, his 'fiancee' who was my best friend before they got together...is only about to be 21..and they live with my mom and don't pay anything etc..she had a pregnancy scare a month or so ago and i wanted to kill them....I told him, you are not allowed to have a baby before me. Not like they are anywhere near ready, anyway...but even thinking about the feeling I would have if he were to have a child before me, makes me want to die. And thank you about Marbles
I was a big fan of Jenna Marbles (don't get the chance to watch much these days, but her dogs are named Marbles and Kermit...so since I named last year's kitty Kermit, Marbles seemed fitting...was the easiest name choice I have ever made, lol)
Mary, how are you feeling now? I read back a lot - any signs of AF? I feel so behind in asking this, but I forget if you work or not? Kenna, do you work? And Mary - are we fb friends yet?
Steph, if you want to add me on fb if you have it, feel free
It's Amy Stillahn, shows up as Amy Elizabeth
Jenna - Glad to see you around! and thank you
SweetMelodies (what is your name again, I am so sorry!) I think that is a good plan...It's so hard to keep it from people. I didn't make my facebook announcement until after I miscarried, which I ended up regretting...only because other people were making announcements right off the bat..and they didn't miscarry
I don't know what I will do when I do get a bfp next time. I had reallly awful morning sickness, never to the point of throwing up, but always really sick feeling...even until after I miscarried..the first trimester i've heard is the hardest with that...I found that always carrying saltine crackers, and even goldfish, in baggies in my purse, and always munching on them helped a TON...and ginger ale...I am a big diet soda drinker, but regular ginger ale helped a lot. I took zofran towards the end sparingly, when I had to work, it also really helps, as long as you take it first thing when you wake up..otherwise it it kindof a waste. It's better at preventing nausea than fixing it, in pregnancy anyways. And for heartburn (I'd never had it before!) my friend said to drink milk...and or take tums. Since I wanted to get my calcium in anyways, I would make chocolate milk (can't stand regular)
Well, Mike and I are supposed to have dinner tonight. He doesn't know about Marbles yet, and I'm afraid he is going to be really pissed...but I hope he understands that it is a comforting/loving thing while we are going through everything, and apart SO much. Better than cheating on him, right? So I think I will tell him tonight and hope he doesn't get too upset.
Marbles is a boy! I took him to my vet at Petsmart (I use banfield, and LOVE my vet) she confirmed he is a little boy
He has his first shots on Sunday afternoon
Brought him to work again, he is currently sleeping on one of my chairs on my coat...i put a little shirt on him that says 'killer' ...will take pics later...sooo cute
Love you all!!!!!
. I never even did that. I just googled every single question..i guess it prob would have been easier if I did the course lol but I feel like FF leaves SOME info out (like every site) so google along with FF:s tips def help alot! 
