good morning luvs
poppy, i hope your doc appt goes well sweetie
your cycle will be back to normal soon hun.
regal!
so good to see you back sweetie! you're right on track for starting to get back into the swing of things to start ttc again in march
tink, phoee, and coral...how are you doing today?
amy, my temp jumped up oddly a few days ago. i think it's ok if it's just the odd one here or there and shouldn't affect your chart.
lupe, sounds like you're pretty busy sweetie
just try to enjoy the wedding planning hun. it's such a big deal and you want to be able to remember it fondly...not for being stressful
babyd, i agree with tink and the others hun. defo better to quit than to be in a job that you're miserable with. it's not worth the stress. i hope your aunt and dh's gran get the medical help they need to get better sweetie
i'll be praying for them as well.
hopes and ladyb, i defo want to get a doppler as well! it sounds so exciting to have one at home. i just wish my dh would be able to hear it
i wonder if we can find one with a video display??? hmmm...have to do some research on that...
hopeful, you'll do fine with us sweetie...we'll help you keep pma up
damita, you sound like you have your plate full too hun!
caz and jenn...how you holding up in tww?
china, when do you think you will ov sweetie?
hmmmm.....who am i missing.... i can't remember now, but great big
to everybody!!!
afm, i think i need to just learn to keep my mouth shut about how dh is doing on the
front
every time i complement him and say how wonderful he is doing and how good i am feeling about it all, something happens to go and screw it up. i'm jinxing myself with it
anyway, so after i said that, dh said he was too tired (of course) to bd, so he said he would bd after a few hours sleep or in the morning. so fine, i accepted that...what was i gonna say??
but then in the morning, he was still too tired and didn't want to which made me very upset, naturally. so then the stress of it got to both of us, but then dh said he would masturbate into one of the softcups for me. so he went to do that, but he didn't want me involved at all and then he was so aggravated by that time that he couldn't finish
so the whole morning was a total bust. totally sucked. i really really thought i would ov yesterday too b/c of my temp pattern and previous cycles. turns out i didn't tho and my opk yesterday was still neg.
so i seduced dh last night
thank God he "let" me
so got the goods last night, and we've had a really good "every other day" bd pattern so far this cycle. BUT (of course the story doesn't end here, why would it ever be that simple???
) we're closing on the sale of the house in SC on Friday, so we were planning to drive up there on Thur after i finish work. well, this morning in talking to dh about the plans b/c my older girls want to stay with friends instead of going on the trip and i'm not comfortable with that, dh suggests that i just stay here with the kids and he goes on his own.
i did not take that suggestion well at all which pissed off dh, so now we're in another argument. arrrrrrrrggggghhhhhhhhh Good Lord, i just want to get through ONE cycle without something like this happening RIGHT AT ov time to screw up the WHOLE damn cycle so that maybe (just MAYBE) we'd have a REAL chance at our bfp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so, he's going to be pissed at me if i insist on taking the kids and going with him, but then we more than likely will miss my ov day. i MIGHT ovulate tomorrow based on previous cycles, in which case, i'm going to tell dh that if he insists on travelling alone that he must bd with me tonight and tomorrow afternoon before he leaves and again as soon as he gets back. that's going to be the condition, and right now, i don't care if it pisses him off to hear it. God! i feel like everything we try to accomplish always has to have so much drama involved!!! i hate that!!!!! plus, he's not going to have an interpreter there at the closing if i'm not there. he says it's "fine" and this his brother will fill him in with anything important. i just want to say "f*** THAT!!!" b/c all his brother can do is a little bit of fingerspelling (and he can only just barely do that and not well either......... as an aside, fingerspelling in American Sign Language [ASL] and British Sign Language [BSL] are 2 very very different entities. actually both languages are completely different, really. i know very little about British sign, but i do know the manual alphabet for BSL is done on both hands, whereas the ASL alphabet is done on one hand
just different, anyway...) so dh thinks his bro will tell him what's "important" through fingerspelling!!!???!!! what that means is his bro will tell dh what he considers important, and not necessarily what is important enough to make dh able to make independent and competent decisions. the whole situation really gets my blood boiling b/c the same thing used to happen with dh's mother when she was alive. (God forgive me for thinking ill of her, but some things about her just really REALLY bother(ed) me....) the whole situation is going to be technical information too with information that dh won't be familiar with b/c we're not in real estate. damn it, i HATE when he sets himself up in situations like this!!!! sorry for the rant girls
obviously this is a passionate issue for me. i just hate when dh claims "oh i'll be fine, i don't need a terp...i'll be fine" and insists on not hiring one or not letting me go, and then later says how much he wished i had been there or something b/c of all the info he missed, or b/c he felt like he came off as stupid or uneducated b/c there was some miscommunication or misunderstanding with speech or he has to ask people to repeat what they said b/c he didn't understand them. don't trust what anybody says about being able to read lips, girls. it's inaccurate. only one-third of the English language is even formed outwardly visible on the lips, so it's a crock of bs when somebody says they can "read lips" with any truly significant accuracy. my dh is someone who would be considered to be an excellent lip reader and he struggles with it all the time still. plus all kinds of things affect it, like if the man has a moustache and lots of other things with the way people talk or facial expressions and other things make it difficult. anyway, that's my soapbox for the day. *sigh* now i've got to figure out how to get dh back on track for the next 2 days so this whole cycle isn't gone to pot again.