Hi girls, I think I'm cracking up... I made a mistake at work the other night which was really stupid and could have been dangerous but was okay in the end. Then at work I just lost the plot and was totally hysterical. I have now been sick of work for two nights, not slept for days and having really bad anxiety and can't stop crying. I'm pretty worried about my mental health tbh. I had depression for years as a teenager but have been fine since I met DH who is wonderful. But now, I think TTC doesn't help, work being so stressful and my is mum moving to Germany next week so the house I grew up in is all packed up. I just feel really anxious all the time, DH is taking me to Paris which should just be amazing but all I feel is anxious about it. I think even if I found out I was pregnant now I would still feel shit. I've been blaming my moods on TTC but I think maybe there's more to it and tbh I'm really scared... Sorry to blurt it all out here but you guys are so lovely and it just seems easier. I don't know what to do. I have to go back to work at some point and I'm totally freaking out. I feel so guilty and stupid bcause I have so many lovely things in my life and nothing to complain about and yet I feel completely horrible.