Doing ok, not great, not terrible. Its a day by day thing. The cruise was a great break for us and gave hubby and me some just us time. Unfortunately I was still bleeding from the miscarriage through the beginning of it but the end was great.
We've also made the decision to move on to donor sperm. It makes me sad when I think we almost had our biological child but we just can't afford having to pay for another operation for hubby for just a chance to find more sperm and IVF/ICSI on top of that. We crunched the numbers and we could stretch ourselves for one more round but then that would be it. And if it didn't work we'd have to stop TTC for a while...maybe a year or more and I don't think either of us can handle it. Plus, the sperm quality isn't great when coming from an operation and we're worried that may lead to another early miscarriage (we have no idea what caused this one other than there was something wrong with the embryo since is was so early on). There is no way I want to go through this again so we decided to move to other options.
I've been completely procrastinating since I'm supposed to make an appointment with our fertility specialist to go over the new plan and also a therapist since that is required for using donor sperm, eggs, or embryos. I haven't done anything so far just because I can't really get excited to be having to go through another round of treatment. And, I'm terrified it might all end badly again. Not sure I can take that. On the positive side, we found a donor that seems so similar to hubby that we both immediately knew that was the one. So, hopefully things will work out.
Sorry to write a book...