Thanks becca, and in the nicest possible way, i'm glad i'm not alone in feeling like this. It's weird, cos sometimes i feel positive about it all, and think well it'll happen when it's meant to etc......but then on the other hand, i just want it so badly, and think i can't imagine it ever happening. It's crazy how when u don't want a baby, ur lead to believe that if u have unprotected sex once, u could be preganant and people have the morning after pill etc, and then u can actively try for months and NOTHING!
I know 4 months isn't that long in the whole scheme of things, but it's so hard to not become obsessed with it all. I'm in two minds at the min.....think i might not bother with OPKs this month and just try to go with the flow. Maybe i need another focus, and not just thinking aboutTTC all the time, but it's so hard.....mmmmmmm maybe time for a new hobby?!