The "never had a second line" Group: 93 members, 18 BFP's, 2 Angel's

[Tanzibar83]

starlight - how loong are your cycles, are they irregular? This is my first cycle on Clomid and it worked wonders! Normally I ovulate cd40+ but it ended up being as early as cd22, which I haven't had it that early since last may!

glitter_xox - how long will you have to wait before you can try again (after the hubby gets deployed)?

Bug222 - Yes OPK's are our sanctuary aren't they? I was telling someone else on this thread that when I found out my best times to take them (5pm onwards) it was like the equivilent of seeing a bfp - I was well excited.

Allyson11 - let us know how you get on with the OPK's next time you use them

 

[starlight11]

Tanzibar83 - My cycles have been fairly normal for the past 4 - 5 months. Around 30 - 33 days, roughly. So I've had a pretty good idea of when I'm ovulating based on CM and other physical symptoms.

We've used OPK's as well that have helped determined when I'm ovulating so I really have no idea why it's taking us so long.

 

[Armywife84]

First off, my condolences to any women on this thread who have suffered losses.

I've been hacking at it for 20 months now...wouldn't even know what a looks like . I only see it in my dreams. Since we're facing male infertility, I'm sure our journey will end with IVF or ICSI one day. Until he deploys, I'm giving the natural (free) way a very long shot.

LTTC has put me in this dark place. At first it made me resent my husband, like he's keeping me from achieving my dream. Now I try to keep in mind, if the roles were reversed, I wouldn't want him to blame me. I'm bitter towards pregnant women; I can't be happy for every single when there are so many. My body still plays tricks on me, with a late AF. I used to cry my eyes out, now I just roll my eyes if she's late. There's no sense in testing because I know it will be a . I used to pray about it every night, but that obviously hasn't helped. I gave up symptom spotting a long time ago; they're all in my head anyways.

I hate infertility and LTTC, wish it didn't exist.

 

[Tanzibar83]

Yay Armywife84 you made it to the thread

I'm quite scared if I admit I'm LTTC, don't think I ever will actually, that's ignorance for you!

It is a dark place and thinking about it, it's the combination of pressure from the bfp women mixed with your own pathetic failure of not timing sex right at your most fertile time (even though you use OPK's\temp\symptom spot etc) that puts you there (thats how it feels to me). You can be the happiest person around, be really pleased for other womens bfps but then the longer it takes the more you think you're going cuckoo cause you start hoping your friends won't get their BFP until you have...which then in turn causes frustration when they do get lucky...BAH! it's a nasty cycle isn't it? (sorry if I'm alone in that thought but it's something which plagues my head).

I think I've mourned AF even though she isn't due until tomorrow, she's already out of my system cause I feel extremely upbeat. It's probably the anticipation of tomorrows testing thats got me quite giddy but I'm not holding out any hope for a good result.

Tomorrow I will work on this thread and get a list of all the girls on it and I hope at least one of us will be able to turn around soon and go "er I have to leave this thread cause I don't fall under this catagory anymore "

 

[Tanzibar83]

starlight - My friend gave me this pdf about TTC and it basically goes on about how even the most healthiest of couples only have a 25% chance of conceiving every cycle. I read that and thought "well I must only have a 2% chance then, if that!"

Have you had any blood tests done?

 

[Armywife84]

Tanz- I will say, I'm truly happy for Wannabe's . It can be seriously challenging to conceive with a VR. Gives me a bit hope with our male factor.

Oh, don't fear the LTTC thread! It's a great support thread for those who are past a year or are already aware they're facing infertility. Not so many 's as TTC threads, but it's truly wonderful when a LTTCer does luck out.

We can only hope for the best, but expect the worst. Here's to hoping for Halloween !

 

[flangel813]

This is cycle 14 for us. Just did bloodwork and SA testing this summer and everything came back normal. Had HSG last month, normal. Still that BFP eludes us. I am finally at a point where I am testing a lot less than I used to. I've been tricked too many times by "symptoms". I've gone back to just taking the Prenatal Vitamins instead of trying to self diagnose myself since everything came back normal. I'm hoping that will make me a little less obsessive too. I've also started using CBFM 3 months ago since my temps have a tendency to bounce around. I took a break from temping last month too and it was a nice break to have - since I couldn't obsess over what DPO I was and what everyone's symptoms are and freak out if my temp dropped at all.

 

[NavyWife84]

I'm quite scared if I admit I'm LTTC, don't think I ever will actually, that's ignorance for you!

It is a dark place and thinking about it, it's the combination of pressure from the bfp women mixed with your own pathetic failure of not timing sex right at your most fertile time (even though you use OPK's\temp\symptom spot etc) that puts you there (thats how it feels to me). You can be the happiest person around, be really pleased for other womens bfps but then the longer it takes the more you think you're going cuckoo cause you start hoping your friends won't get their BFP until you have...which then in turn causes frustration when they do get lucky...BAH! it's a nasty cycle isn't it? (sorry if I'm alone in that thought but it's something which plagues my head).

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I am right there with you. Oh, and I usually stay on the LTTTC side because there are far less BFPs. The women over there are wonderful!

 

[doopersgurl]

hey ladies i hope you dont mind me joining but i have never seen a bfp
last year i did fall pregnant but i didnt know i was and only found out when i miscarried
hope we all get our own bfp soon

 

[Tanzibar83]

NavyWife84 - I think I'll go have a natter to the LTTC women, I might be very theraputic actually!

 

[Tanzibar83]

Well as expected stupid Irma turned up for me today. CD37 - pretty good for me, good ole Clomid!

 

[Armywife84]

Well as expected stupid Irma turned up for me today. CD37 - pretty good for me, good ole Clomid!

Irma..Is that your name for the ? I call her "Rosy" .

 

[Allyson11]

Sorry if it's tmi but I'm still getting light brown discharge like the end of my period and my temps are all over the place, although I've not been too strict with the bbt, or if I leave it later my temp goes right up even if I've slept. We haven't bd'd this cycle yet. Any ideas? I've been taking agnus castus as I don't think I ovulate usually.

 

[CassieC]

Sorry to hear about Irma Tanzibar.

 

[Tanzibar83]

I call her Irma as someone in a comedy show in the UK calls it that!

Allyson11 Agnus castus didn't do anything for me, neither did soy for that matter. Not to sure what to advise there but I would recommend not to get too stressed out by it

 

[Bunnikins]

Irma for me too Tanzi! Boo hoo! another month without a sniff of a line.. but only wasted £14 on preg tests this cycle (madness!!!).. and thats cos FRERs are on buy one get one free LOL!

 

[NavyWife84]

"Irma" is here for me too She showed her ugly face on the 1st and I couldn't get out of bed because I was literally curled up in a ball crying from my cramps. And the doc didn't believe me when I said I think I have endo!

 

[Tanzibar83]

Allyson11 - how has the brown discharge been for you, hope you're ok.

Sorry to hear Irma got you Bunnikins can't believe it cost you £14 for a test though, are you stocked up for this cycle though? I tested with the clear blue digital which we've had for months but was expensive at the time...what a complete waste.

Also went and ordered 100 OPK's from amazon, yippee!

NavyWife84 - boo that the witch got you, if your doc doesn't believe you, you should go and get a second opinion.

Girls I've updated the first page with all your info, please let me know if you want anything removing\adding! xxx

 

[Allyson11]

It's got lighter but it's still there. My temps were up today, I really hope I ov'ed!
Sorry to every one who's gotten AF

 

[josephine3]

Can I hang out for a bit too? Im ntnp leaning towards ttc and have been for 15 long months. I have never seen a proper line, i feel i may have had a chemical, but i certainly didnt have a jump up screaming moment and didnt have anything to celebrate. Im getting pretty down this cycle I feel its never going to happen. Its been such a loooong time..

I do feel the way some others feel when people who are on their 2nd, third or fourth babies are complaining! Its terrible though. Of course, 2 of my friends are pregnant accidentally.... so frustrating...so unfair