Things I cannot say out loud....

[Natsku]

tanya, good luck with the dieting when you do start

Grr to that mother Emmy!

Yay get to take Maria home from hospital today

 

[Emmy1987]

Yay Nats!!!

Still angry... hopefully cheese on toast will calm me down

Oh and the fact that ITS MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!

 

[Fergie]

All sounds good starlit! Good luck!
I still have cramps and its the next day the bleeding only lasted a few hours tho which is good for me.
The thing I can't stop thinking about is we were chatting away all through it (I think she was trying to keep me calm. *Tmi* when she put the speculum in she had a look up there and stopped chatting for a bit and said "I'll just give it an extra thorough scraping" then after she'd done that set of chatting again. I'm now being horribly paranoid that she saw something bad, I know she probably didn't and was just concentratin on doing her job but its still freaked me out a bit. Three weeks to wait for the results.
Also discussed a little was my weight and af, the nurse thinks there's definitely a connection between my size, the sheer speed I've gained weight (I'm about two stone heavier than the day before I have birth and I gained four stone while I was pregnant) and af getting more and more irregular, if I keep up the weight gain apparently af will stop completely (nice thought for a second lol) that also means I'd be basically forcing my body to become infertile, af and making babies is what makes me a woman if I lose both of those I'm just a fat androgynous lump.
Dh won't let me diet till after Christmas tho, too many meals out etc and don't want the stress of "ooh I shouldn't eat that" on top of being the first Christmas without fil.
For the first time in my life I'm actually scared that my health will fail and I'll leave Flynn without a mother.

Go to your Drs and demand a thyroid function test. Your symptoms are the same as mine were and my thyroid was totally knackered.

Yay Nats

 

[tanya]

My mum had a thyroid thing I think.

 

[rainbowbaby2]

Really just want labour to kick in fully now xx not likeing this slow labour malarky x

 

[Fergie]

Oohh labour Rainbow . Fingers crossed it kicks in quick for you XX

 

[Fergie]

My mum had a thyroid thing I think.

They say it's not genetic, but it bloody is !. My mum, my sis and me all have underactive thyroids and various other conditions that put them under the umbrella of "auto immune" diseases. We're waiting to see an endocrinologist now

 

[x Michelle x]

My DD has congenital Hypothyroidism, no-one in either of our families have it, but me and OH both carry different dodgy genes and together they buggered up one of hers and gave her the CH

 

[luci and bump]

OH-you rushed me and rushed me to get ready, to go for a meal that I didn't even really want to go for. So I walked into town in the pouring rain, and we spent £45 that we don't have on a meal that wasn't really anything great.
And because you rushed me, I didn't check that my lottery ticket had gone through, which it hadn't!! I swear to god, if my numbers come up, your life will not be worth living.

 

[Natsku]

I am beyond words with this whole situation now

 

[tanya]

Mil- it wasn't your fault.
Flynn decided yesterday to pull out of her hand, she's not got a lot of grip but he usually just stays with her, he pulled out and ran down the path to the street where I was unlocking the car, ran down the comcrete step, lost his balance and fell back and hit his head on the edge of the step, big bruise and bump, I thought we were going to hospital last night coz. He was so upset for so long and really clingy he seems ok now though and managed to eat a little before bed.
It was the worst thing I've ever seen or heard! He was stunned at first and didnt cry for a second and in that second while I was dropping armfuls of cake I'd spent all day baking (playgroup fundraiser) I actually felt my heart break, I thought he was dead or at the least badly injured. I heard a crack.
I can't tell anyone coz mil is already wracked with guilt and no one else seems to think it was that bad, how the hell bashing your head on a concrete step isn't bad ill never know.
I need a helmet for this kid before I crack up completely

 

[tanya]

You ok nat? I thought it was good news?

I'm sorry Hun, I'd not read your other thread, you will get her back and when you do bring her to the uk where the courts are at least a bit fucking sensible!

 

[Natsku]

Won't be able to take her to the UK unless I get sole custody.

 

[Ozzieshunni]

I think after this, you'll probably be able to.

 

[x Michelle x]

Is that something you would consider Nats? Coming back to the UK?

 

[Natsku]

No, I want to stay here with Timo. We've been talking about having more kids and everything.

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

I agree with Ozzie. Whatever you wanna do, after this little stunt I expect you'll get sole custody.

I hope they throw the bloody book at him for all these lies! Anyone with a brain cell can see he's not fit to look after Maria.

 

[luci and bump]

Nats- hope you're ok! I second what was said on your other thread, you need to get social services to check on her as often as possible, without warning if that's allowed. They seem so unhinged that who knows what they think is acceptable any more!
I'd put in a formal complaint about whoever signed the court order too! What's the use of you jumping through hoops to prove Maria is safe with you, when they just waltz in and do things that are harmful to her!!
I hope they throw the book at him! He deserves everything he's got coming to him. And, I think Timo should go after compensation from him for having his name dragged into it too, with such potentially damaging allegations!!
It's disgusting that you're not allowed to see her for those two weeks! Will you not be allowed to skype her etc? Seems very unfair, when your ex had skype calls with Maria.

Tanya- Hope Flynn is ok, and your MIL isn't beating herself up too much about it I was just holding Evie on our bed and she threw herself sideways and knocked her head on the wall. She carried on laughing, but I heard it happen and it brought me to tears, so I can only imagine how scary it must have been. Hope you're all ok.

OH-yes, I'm tired after being up at 7am this morning with Evie, while you just roll over and go back to sleep. So no, you will not be going to your friends tonight for ciders and video games! The least you could have done was let me sleep in the spare room last night, so I got a lie in for once! I know you think taking LO to town with you today is helping me, but it isn't. It just means that now I'm sat at home doing nothing on my own, instead of with LO! You work 5 days a week, is it to much to ask that we actually spend time together at the weekend?! I've been asking for weeks to start our xmas shopping. You hate town when it's busy, well the longer we leave it, the busier it'll be! I'm stressing enough about xmas, as it's LO's first, and we have our parents coming to us. The least you could do would be to support me, and help me buy everything. You've offered to cook, which is great, but if we haven't bought anything, that really isn't helping!!!!!

 

[Natsku]

I can skype her if he lets me but basically I have no rights. Its not just compensation that Timo can seek, its a criminal offence here and my ex and his dad could get prison time. We're writing up the crime report now.

 

[tanya]

Hope they throw the book at them nats, it's a disgusting thing to accuse someone of and drag a little girl away from her mummy especially with everything else happening.

We're doing better this morning, been out with mil, she feels a bit better now she's seen he's ok.