Ttc #1 Positive thinking buddies, sticking together. (13 BFPs, 2 angels)

[TinyLynne]

Hi hanrh,

Hcg was low yesterday, between 5-10. Will be doing bloods again today and will get the answers later or in the morning, but it's like we are conceiving and it's just bumping into my uterus on its way out and continues to exit.

I was sad with the first 2, but now I'm just scared.

I'm anxious to meet with the specialist, but scared at what it means at the same time.

How are you?

 

[Michellebelle]

I can't remember.. Have you done progesterone? If not, maybe that's what you need for the baby to stick!

 

[hanrh]

Tiny I feel exactly the same. I feel almost numb to it, as if I'm expecting bad news all the time if that makes sense.

Im hoping that your doctor can help you out though. I've heard of women taking baby aspirin for early losses too. You did the progesterone didn't you? There are so many other possible causes I've been reading up on however hopefully your doc will be able to test you for everything now.

I'm ok, my temps have evened out after the last loss so am looking forward to ovulation day hopefully soon!! Scared about getting pregnant again though as don't want to go through all the heartache!!

 

[TinyLynne]

Yes I did do progesterone from O date. I did baby aspirin as well, but I was checked for clotting disorders after the last one and they all came back negative, so it wouldn't really help anything anyway.

And I do totally get what you mean about the numbness. I try to stay positive and happy that in pregnant when I see the test, and I AM happy, there is just so much excitement that is taken away and replaced with caution. I spent this morning reading a women's blog about her journey, and it made me feel hopeful, she found her 'magic' cocktail and it worked both times she used it.

I think it is helping me to know that I will be seeing a specialist soon if my bloods come back negative, because I have a whole list of questions and new things to try, and I'm excited to try new things that may work.

Below is a link to the blog. In the comments section she gives a hyperlink to her success article.

https://recurrentearlymiscarriage.wordpress.com/about/

 

[laura2lyn4]

Tiny I'm so praying you can find your special "cocktail!" the good news about all of this though is that you CAN conceive! Now just gotta find the magic sticky potion to help

Hanrh Im so happy you're able to ttc again and not have to wait this time!

Michelle- how is your pregnancy going? Did you find anything else out?

 

[Michellebelle]

Still in limbo. I go back on Monday to get more blood work and an ultrasound. I'm really hoping they'll see a heartbeat, otherwise I bet i'll have to have a d&c

 

[TinyLynne]

Good luck Michelle!! Praying you get to see that beautiful heartbeat!!!

 

[TinyLynne]

Good luck Michelle!! Praying you get to see that beautiful heartbeat!!!

 

[TinyLynne]

So I had a dream that my HPT was positive again (it was negative 3 days ago after being positive for the 3 days before) so I took and FRER and it is positive again. Not super dark, but just as dark as a few days ago, maybe a tiny bit darker. I'm 15 DPO today. I took a Clearblue digital which have even negative the whole time, and it's positive, though it only said 1-2... I'm so all kinds of confused.

 

[Michellebelle]

Interesting. Maybe take your temp tomorrow and see if it is in the pre or post ovulation range?

 

[laura2lyn4]

Maybe you had one eggie implant early that ended up a cp and a second one implant a few days later that is sticky?! Just a completely wild guess but maybe?!

Fx for you Michelle! Heartbeat heartbeat heartbeat!!!

 

[TinyLynne]

I'm on progesterone supplements, so it will keep my temps raised.

 

[TinyLynne]

Laura - that is exactly the crazy scenario I had in my head a few days ago.

 

[hanrh]

Oh wow I've missed all the excitement!! Tiny - that's sounding so promising! I auve everything crossed for you!! There is no reason that you would get another positive again unless it was a pregnancy so yay!!! When did you say you were getting bloods again? All this Ttc stuff is such a roller coaster!!

Michelle - hoping for you so bad that you see a heartbeat! Positive thoughts your way and will be thinking of you lots on Monday!!

 

[TinyLynne]

Well, my OB called (on a Saturday, bless him) and said my levels yesterday (14dpo) were an 18, still very low, but more than doubled from the 6ish at 12dpo.... So.... Good news? But still low. I've never had my betas go up on a second draw, so that is exciting to me!

 

[hanrh]

Oh wow that's good news! I'm so hopeful for you and sending positive thoughts your way! X

 

[laura2lyn4]

Ahh that's so exciting!!! There are some women I know who had really low levels in the beginning too and went on to have healthy pregnancies!! As long as they are increasing is all that matters!!

 

[laura2lyn4]

P.s- worst part about the very beginning of pregnancy... TONS AND TONS of blood draws!! I looked like a heroin addict!!! Lol

 

[hanrh]

Agreed. I bruise badly with blood drAws so I constantly looked all bruised!!

 

[hanrh]

Michelle thinking of you today. Will be looking out for an update and praying all goes well for you x