Ttc #1

[sunshine2014]

The day af was due for me I had intense cramps, and I never used to cramp for af at all. After I had my d&c last time I started to cramp after af would start. But before was definitely weird for me. Fx still.

Today I go find out...last night I had horrible dreams that I started miscarrying. This baby carrying business is so stressful and unpredictable. We all take it for granted that it will be easy - getting pregnant, and staying pregnant. I'm really dreading going in this morning. My stomach is in knots and I'm trying to get out of it. DH can't go with me, so I'll be alone His work is being super strict with days off, so I'm hoping he'll be able to get the time off for my d&c if needed. While it will be good to have answers, I'm dreading being in the u/s room. It's been twice now where I've laid there waiting for them to tell me good news, and my heart has just sunk when I realized they didn't have any. The worst feeling ever. Keep me in your thoughts today

 

[babydust0302]

sunshine everything will be alright. if not, just know you have a support system here
praying for you!

 

[nmpjcp2015]

Thinking of you and praying for you today Sunshine.

 

[sunshine2014]

Thanks ladies. I'm waiting for the results. No too hopeful though as the ultrasound tech didn't say anything to me. She was a bit rude too. I asked for a Kleenex and she kinda tossed the box on the stretcher next to me

I'm alone in the OB's office. I can't believe this is happening again trying hard not to cry

 

[babydust0302]

maybe she was quiet just because she's rude. Hoping for some good news.

I'm currently in more pain than last night. I'm starting to feel less hopeful. I feel terrible. Feel AF coming soon

 

[nmpjcp2015]

How long will it take for your results to come? I hope they are good.

babydust - I'm sad to hear that. I was really hoping this month would be your month.

 

[sunshine2014]

Definitely lost the baby. I'm a wreck ladies. D&c booked for next Wednesday.

 

[babydust0302]

oh no! I'm so sorry

 

[nmpjcp2015]

I am so sorry Sunshine. I really am. Hopefully your husband can be off work in order to be with your at your appointment. I cannot imagine your pain.

I hope you find comfort in the next few weeks.

 

[sunshine2014]

Thanks. My OB is going to start investigating after my first cycle. I can't believe this is happening again. I'm 28 and my DH is 37. We didn't start Ttc until last April. Hoping we do eventually get our baby. So far I feel so defeated.

 

[babydust0302]

so it looks like AF just arrived for me. weird though. blood is almost purple and extremely light flow. first time i see that...

 

[nmpjcp2015]

I went to see my doctor today, told him we are TTC and he said well. Don't stress and have fun TTC because stressing can make you less likely to get pregnant. He also said we should be prepared to wait a few months because giving life really is a miracle. That made me feel so much better about it taking a while to get pregnant. We are going to relax.

He said to come back after 3-4 more months have passed and we haven't gotten pregnant. We are on cycle three now, so that would be after 6-7 cycles.

I really feel like one of us is going to get a sticky bean soon! I'm just sorry this month wasn't the month! Hugs.

 

[sunshine2014]

Glad your doctor gave you some reassurance.

It hasn't been easy but we'll all get our babes. I know it. We may be here for years lol, but we will. Deal?

 

[babydust0302]

soo today AF came super light, but now I have nothing. No cramps. No bleeding. Weird. Should I be worried?

 

[sunshine2014]

Have you tested?

 

[babydust0302]

i tested and got BFN which is why I was a little worried. but AF came in with a bang this morning.
I guess yesterday was just a tease

I am going to try preseed this cycle to see if it works for us. we're on cycle #7 already.

 

[sunshine2014]

It's okay, I know cycle 7 feels like eternity, but sometimes it just takes awhile to catch it. So try not to worry, you also have longer cycles right? I had short cycles and I was missing O completely. It took me 4 months just to figure out when I was O'ing. I'm sorry she came in with a bang...what a witch Our bodies are so frustrating aren't they? But I'm amazed at how strong we are and how we aren't giving up.

 

[nmpjcp2015]

Yeah, we'll be here until the end, but hopefully it won't take months. He he.

Babydust, I hate when that happens. It seems like since TTC my periods have been making it at point to the as horrible as possible.

AFM - I'm still using those OPKs. I had two light days, then it seemed like the line disappeared, NOW its getting darker but it's still just slightly lighter than the line. IDK about these little Wondfo Ovulation strips. I'm going to keep testing though for a few more days. Maybe I missed it?? Or I'm ovulating later than I thought or not at all? Ugh.

Even if I get blessed with one little baby, I'll be happy. At this point, I also just want to know that I can do it.

Babydust, let me know how the preseed works. I've heard mixed reviews.

 

[babydust0302]

nmpjcp will do. i'll be buying it after AF is gone. i read more good than bad reviews. Let's see how it goes for us.

 

[sunshine2014]

I've never read about preseed. My difficulty so far hasn't been getting pregnant, it seems to be keeping it going. They're going to do tests this time. DH did some research last night in all his books and told me all about clotting and how common it is. If your blood clots it cuts off blood supply to baby early on. It could also be hormones or worst case genetic causes. The first two are fixable so I'm hoping it's that. OR it could just be bad luck....