So sorry to hear of your loss, that must of been really hard and upsetting to see that. I know when I was still bleeding I couldn't stop crying every-time I went to the toilet, it didn't start getting easier till it stopped. I still have tearful moments now and its been 6 months since I miscarried I dont think I will fully ever get over losing my baby.
Thank you and
to you. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss.
I feel a bit like a horrible parent. I actually have been feeling ok yesterday and today. I feel hopeful for the future and can actually talk about what happened without bawling. I miss my baby so much, but I've put my focus on getting back to ttc and losing weight etc. I have waves of sadness/solemness and I probably always will. There will always be that part of me that's waiting to meet my LO.
I don't know.... maybe it's because this all was so crazy from the start. I got my positive pregnancy test and then got a negative qualitative blood test and bawled. Then I kept getting positive tests and had them do another blood test quantitative this time and got the positive but it was only at 10 hCG. Then I got the results of the 2nd quant test and it was only 20 and I bawled again because the numbers suddenly made it feel like it was all wrong. When I started bleeding I bawled again and pretty much bawled for the next 3 days.
Looking back, I knew when I saw that 2nd hCG number that I was losing the baby, I just tried really hard to convince myself that I wasn't.
@Lily_Hope - Thank you. I was 5 weeks when the bleeding started. You are right. It's a nice feeling when you can start trying again. I think in some ways I felt a bit like I was less of a woman when I lost the baby and bd'ing with my hubby made me feel better about myself. Maybe that's just me being weird though.