Try that is such a lovely and wonderful thing to do. I can understand DH saying no to carrying a baby, I think that would be a bit much with the children for you.
We are all good here, Isaac has a play date with some friends tomo and baby massage on Tuesday.
I really love being a Mummy, I get emotional thinking about how lucky I am. I wonder if because of suffering a loss you appreciate more what you have. I certainly think so.