LucyLake
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Before my miscarriage pregnancy, I had a dream that I was trying to explain to my two granddaughters from twins I bore that they were not first cousins, but literally half-siblings by DNA. And that technically by DNA, their aunt is also their mother 
But, that is it. I honestly thought this was my fascination with biology which was my degree, not a sign.
I asked the sonographer if it was a blighted ovum actually.. She didn't see a thing doing the jelly stomach scan except an empty sac and laughed and said I must read a lot of Wikipedia. I just gave it to God and let myself lose control. I had the spot, but knew my levels had gone up because my FRER control lines continued to get lighter every 48 hrs, but test line much darker. So, I was waiting for her to say levels rising, empty sac, blighted ovum and was just kind of numb.
She reassured me she thought she'd see at least a pole on the vaginal scan and she truly took her time. I allowed myself to get excited, but now awaited the words "sorry I don't see the tiny flicker." (HB) She messed around 25 minutes before she told me a thing, but something she said kind of hit me and that was that she thought she saw two cysts on corpus luteum and something about how that was interesting blah, blah, blah.
Then she just randomly blurts out that there's a hb and my son and I cried so much and thanked her hundreds of times. I thought she was done, but more time passes. Then out of the blue she's like: I don't have a lot of twins in my family, but I saw the cutest set in the ER last week. One of them was so sick and her sister was trying to console her. She tells my son they're his age and maybe he knows them? I swear I thought she's making small talk so I just kept talking and told her I always wished for twins...not even sure how the conversation led there...still was in shock there was a hb.
So she kept going and then she finally turned the screen around and said this is the hb, it's 147. And she was like look at this. She showed me my baby at the far right bottom corner, I broke down. And then the weirdest thing she flipped the picture and it was like a diagonal mirror image. She pointed this time to the top left corner and said here's the baby. I felt like a kid at a magic show watching her pull a rabbit out of a hat/attempt a Houdini.
None of this registered. She looked at me inquisitively and just stopped everything she was doing and then asked my son what grade he was in.
Then she got back to what she was doing and blurted out: you know what this means right?
And she then reset the scan and showed me the top left baby and bottom right baby. This time they were together on the screen...no flipping. But, I swear it didn't register until she said the words baby B's hb is 119.
Baby B, Baby B.....
I just about died of excitement, sheer fright...
Clues:
Symptoms started at 7-8 Dpo....had nausea then.
Tired so much as with my MC, hence I figure it's another MC. I need multiple naps and can barely function and am only 7-8 dpo
Have to pee every hour from 7-8 dpo, but figure it's because I try to drink 300 oz plus per day of water
Multiple OPK peaks in same cycle.
And my biggest clue of all in hindsight: my neverending love of yams since I started TTC. If they're identical, can thank only god that my love for these brought me to this day.
Huge hugs to everyone. I cannot sleep, lots of worries now.
Only time will tell, but for now pregnant....and for the moment these babies share a sac and don't have a clear dividing membrane. So, until proven otherwise by later scans, they are mono-mono which is absolutely terrifying. They are also identical and either two boys or two girls unless we somehow see a dividing membrane and two placentas later, but they still are possibly di-di identical even then. The sonographer just can't see the divide and thinks it could just be early/I have a tilted uterus. There is a 50% survival rate due to cord entanglement, sharing too much in terms of placenta and sac if there's never a dividing line and they remain mono mono identical.
Scared to lose one or both...
Scared they're mono-mono...
Scared because I can't sleep and eat without feeling sick...
But, that is it. I honestly thought this was my fascination with biology which was my degree, not a sign.
I asked the sonographer if it was a blighted ovum actually.
. She didn't see a thing doing the jelly stomach scan except an empty sac and laughed and said I must read a lot of Wikipedia. I just gave it to God and let myself lose control. I had the spot, but knew my levels had gone up because my FRER control lines continued to get lighter every 48 hrs, but test line much darker. So, I was waiting for her to say levels rising, empty sac, blighted ovum and was just kind of numb.She reassured me she thought she'd see at least a pole on the vaginal scan and she truly took her time. I allowed myself to get excited, but now awaited the words "sorry I don't see the tiny flicker." (HB) She messed around 25 minutes before she told me a thing, but something she said kind of hit me and that was that she thought she saw two cysts on corpus luteum and something about how that was interesting blah, blah, blah.
Then she just randomly blurts out that there's a hb and my son and I cried so much and thanked her hundreds of times. I thought she was done, but more time passes. Then out of the blue she's like: I don't have a lot of twins in my family, but I saw the cutest set in the ER last week. One of them was so sick and her sister was trying to console her. She tells my son they're his age and maybe he knows them? I swear I thought she's making small talk so I just kept talking and told her I always wished for twins...not even sure how the conversation led there...still was in shock there was a hb.
So she kept going and then she finally turned the screen around and said this is the hb, it's 147. And she was like look at this. She showed me my baby at the far right bottom corner, I broke down. And then the weirdest thing she flipped the picture and it was like a diagonal mirror image. She pointed this time to the top left corner and said here's the baby. I felt like a kid at a magic show watching her pull a rabbit out of a hat/attempt a Houdini.
None of this registered. She looked at me inquisitively and just stopped everything she was doing and then asked my son what grade he was in.
Then she got back to what she was doing and blurted out: you know what this means right?
And she then reset the scan and showed me the top left baby and bottom right baby. This time they were together on the screen...no flipping. But, I swear it didn't register until she said the words baby B's hb is 119.
Baby B, Baby B.....I just about died of excitement, sheer fright...
Clues:
Symptoms started at 7-8 Dpo....had nausea then.
Tired so much as with my MC, hence I figure it's another MC. I need multiple naps and can barely function and am only 7-8 dpo
Have to pee every hour from 7-8 dpo, but figure it's because I try to drink 300 oz plus per day of water
Multiple OPK peaks in same cycle.
And my biggest clue of all in hindsight: my neverending love of yams since I started TTC. If they're identical, can thank only god that my love for these brought me to this day.
Huge hugs to everyone. I cannot sleep, lots of worries now.
Only time will tell, but for now pregnant....and for the moment these babies share a sac and don't have a clear dividing membrane. So, until proven otherwise by later scans, they are mono-mono which is absolutely terrifying. They are also identical and either two boys or two girls unless we somehow see a dividing membrane and two placentas later, but they still are possibly di-di identical even then. The sonographer just can't see the divide and thinks it could just be early/I have a tilted uterus. There is a 50% survival rate due to cord entanglement, sharing too much in terms of placenta and sac if there's never a dividing line and they remain mono mono identical.
Scared to lose one or both...
Scared they're mono-mono...
Scared because I can't sleep and eat without feeling sick...
when you least expect it! 
Hugs about your BFF and her new baby. It's very bittersweet. 
