2013 losses- rainbow baby making thread...

[Nimyra]

Thank you for the responses.

So...

Yeah, I'm pretty sure my pain yesterday was the cyst bursting and flooding my tissues with fluid... since it came on suddenly and was the right sort of pain. I just wish those drs and the ultrasound techs would say more!!!!! After the subchoronic hematoma, black spots on ultrasounds concern me greatly! ... so on my list of things to discuss with ob next appt is showing her the ultrasound pic and asking about it.

About the prolapse. It happened during my first trimester preg. with my daughter 4 years ago as well. Moderate prolapse during early pregnancy both because my ligaments get REALLY loose, and the baby is heavy. I freaked out it 4 years ago when it happened, but my ob reassured me. What happened was that as the pregnancy progressed, it lifted over time and by the time I was halfway through the preg. no more prolapse.

After childbirth (vaginal) I still have some prolapse but it was mild, not moderate.

So, currently i'm in the moderate range, OB isn't concerned (had it checked 2 weeks ago) and I'm not too concerned either, because I'm thinking it will lift in another 3 weeks or so.

Today, mostly just still concerned about the bump.

Lucy, I hear what you say, but seriously I do think they think I'm nuts and my OB is wonderful but crazy busy and I just don't think I can call... considering that what I really want is to to checked and there is no way they are going to squeeze me in for an early appt. for a bump. They'll make me wait the 2 weeks and I'll feel like a fool. I know, its not ideal... something is going on with the practice and they don't have time for people like me right now... but I don't want the hassle of changing practices and I actually like my OB very much, when I'm actually able to see her.

... for now, I'm going to try to stop checking and just try to convince myself its something harmless like a blister or small cyst.

Love you all. thank you for letting me sound like a crazy person... that is how i feel most days.

 

[EarthMama]

Thanks for all the prolapse info, ladies. I did go to get checked for a prolapse a few months after birthing my son but the doctor didn't check me correctly, he checked me when I was laying down but the only way you can truly diagnose prolapse in a majority of cases is to see where the cervix hangs when gravity is applied. Man the doctor's here are really unimpressive. I always go into my appointments knowing more then they do and that is SAD. 3 years on this little island...it's been an amazing adventure but I think in a year or two we might move back to the mainland. The lack of progression here is a little maddening.

Nimyra I was really hoping that as the pregnancy progressed the uterus would "fill up" like a balloon and pull the cervix up, so I'm happy to hear that's how it happened for you in your daughter's pregnancy. I am still anxious of a vaginal birth effecting the prolapse (I have a fear of pushing my uterus out with the baby) but I'll have to do some research and talk to my midwife and let her check me out. I haven't told her I'm pregnant yet.

 

[LucyLake]

Hang in there Nimyra. I wonder if the blister is just from DTD'ing? Your cervix is extremely sensitive right now.

Sedgeez, it's so good to see you. You are always in my thoughts. Prayers for you and your family

 

[Nimyra]

Lucy, haven't DTD in over a month. Just not interested, even if I could with the prolapse and all.

 

[Kasey84]

Sedgeez! So good to hear from you. I'm sorry to hear that your going through a tough time. Thinking of you and sending hugs your way

 

[george83]

Sedgeez it's amazing to hear from you, I hope your doing ok?

Nimyra I'm sorry your finding this all so stressful I long for the days of my pregnancy with my son where everything went smoothly and everyday wasn't spent being paranoid. I hope your starting to feel better and the pain has stopped?

We gave in a brought a changing unit for our baby from eBay on Thursday night, it's currently sat in our living room and every time I look at it I think we've made a mistake as its still so early really. Thursday is my angels due date as well and I've spent most of this past week in tears, I feel a bit like its getting too much again. My son was actually born on his due date which I know doesn't happen very often but makes me feel like my angels due date is really special

 

[LucyLake]

Hi Nimyra,

I hope today is a better day and your blister is disappearing. I'm not sure what it could be either, but sure of one thing, Google is NOT your friend in this instance!!! I just know it's related to your pregnancy and not these scary ridiculous things Google mentions!!

I know how you feel about the dtd'ing, I thought I was the only person on earth who dtd on dpo 7 and then waited until last week in week 13 to try once (and said no way too scary afterward when I thought I was leaking amniotic fluid, it was sperm!!!!! as a result.). I've also had zero desire until week 13 when I briefly felt like a girl again! Lmao. I also need to be sure about the previa issue and would rather not worry. Huge huge hugs

George83, I still haven't bought anything!! I'm glad you did, that is a huge, huge step! . I'm waiting for the gender reveal even though I feel certain I know...but I bet even then I'll be too afraid.

How is everyone else doing? EarthMama, How are the early days

 

[LucyLake]

Could I join in? I had one loss in 2012 and 2 losses in 2013 I had two D&Cs this year so my doctor told me to wait 5-6 months to try again, and this month is month 5 so we are going to start! I am currently CD4. I am wishing for our rainbow baby!!!

Chelsea, welcome back! I remember you from first tri during my MC. Really praying for you to get your rainbow

Welcome all new ladies

 

[minni2906]

I need opinions ladies.

I've been thinking about getting a tattoo in memory of my angel, lyrics to a song. DF isn't 100% on board with it.. he seems to think that if our future children see it and ask what it's for or what it means, they'll think we didn't want them. I don't think they will. I think by the time they understand enough to ask, they'll understand enough to know we love them and we wanted them.

Any opinions welcome.

 

[EarthMama]

Hi Nimyra,

I hope today is a better day and your blister is disappearing. I'm not sure what it could be either, but sure of one thing, Google is NOT your friend in this instance!!! I just know it's related to your pregnancy and not these scary ridiculous things Google mentions!!

I know how you feel about the dtd'ing, I thought I was the only person on earth who dtd on dpo 7 and then waited until last week in week 13 to try once (and said no way too scary afterward when I thought I was leaking amniotic fluid, it was sperm!!!!! as a result.). I've also had zero desire until week 13 when I briefly felt like a girl again! Lmao. I also need to be sure about the previa issue and would rather not worry. Huge huge hugs

George83, I still haven't bought anything!! I'm glad you did, that is a huge, huge step! . I'm waiting for the gender reveal even though I feel certain I know...but I bet even then I'll be too afraid.

How is everyone else doing? EarthMama, How are the early days

Aloha Lucy! I am doing okay, my emotions have settled down somewhat and I'm just trying to stay optimistic. I have been reading statistics about reoccurring miscarriages in a row and how rare they are and that oddly seems to help. Only 2% of women will have 2 MC in a row. (hope that doesn't offend or upset anyone by me sharing what I read, but I did find it helpful in dealing with my anxiety). So those are pretty good odds. Just trying to stay positive I guess!

So I'm tired most of the time and utterly uninterested in food. Nothing really tastes good anymore, haha...everything seems to taste like 'battery acid' (although I have no basis for comparison on that, lol). I have lost 6 pounds since getting my BFP and that really worries me. I take a few bites of something and feel grossed out and stop eating. I get waves of nausea here and there but nothing debilitating yet. Although I am getting extreme motion sickness, being in a moving vehicle brings me close to throwing up.

So I hope I can keep my appetite up somehow. I don't usually lose weight in the first tri, so that's why I'm worried. Even in my worst nausea with my son I still felt hungry and tried different things so this is different.

I am still having cramping and "sensations" off and on in my uterus! The cramping actually reassures me that something is happening in there, haha! It is interesting because I remember the cramping vividly with my son but even though my uterus was growing with my MC, I never got the cramping! So that's probably why the cramping reassures me...but if I get TOO much cramping, or I don't feel anything, I get worried, lol. Hard to win with the nerves in these early weeks.

Sometimes I do feel more "twinges" and aches on my right side of my body which makes me super worried about ecotopic, but they never last long.

Can't wait for my scan! It's in a few weeks. fingers crossed...

Thanks for checking in! I really appreciate the support you ladies have all given me, thank you so much.

 

[EarthMama]

Sedgeez it's amazing to hear from you, I hope your doing ok?

Nimyra I'm sorry your finding this all so stressful I long for the days of my pregnancy with my son where everything went smoothly and everyday wasn't spent being paranoid. I hope your starting to feel better and the pain has stopped?

We gave in a brought a changing unit for our baby from eBay on Thursday night, it's currently sat in our living room and every time I look at it I think we've made a mistake as its still so early really. Thursday is my angels due date as well and I've spent most of this past week in tears, I feel a bit like its getting too much again. My son was actually born on his due date which I know doesn't happen very often but makes me feel like my angels due date is really special

I agree, due dates are very special. The due date of a MC is charged with heavy emotions. I was a total wreck around my due date of my angel, and I actually got my dark-line BFP for this pregnancy ON the due date of my lost little one.

Be gentle with yourself, it's awesome that you are starting to buy stuff for the lil baby though I can understand that it also feels so overwhelming, especially with the due date of your angel around the corner. Sending you good vibes.

 

[george83]

Sedgeez it's amazing to hear from you, I hope your doing ok?

Nimyra I'm sorry your finding this all so stressful I long for the days of my pregnancy with my son where everything went smoothly and everyday wasn't spent being paranoid. I hope your starting to feel better and the pain has stopped?

We gave in a brought a changing unit for our baby from eBay on Thursday night, it's currently sat in our living room and every time I look at it I think we've made a mistake as its still so early really. Thursday is my angels due date as well and I've spent most of this past week in tears, I feel a bit like its getting too much again. My son was actually born on his due date which I know doesn't happen very often but makes me feel like my angels due date is really special

I agree, due dates are very special. The due date of a MC is charged with heavy emotions. I was a total wreck around my due date of my angel, and I actually got my dark-line BFP for this pregnancy ON the due date of my lost little one.

Be gentle with yourself, it's awesome that you are starting to buy stuff for the lil baby though I can understand that it also feels so overwhelming, especially with the due date of your angel around the corner. Sending you good vibes.

Thank you so much for this, my husband hasn't mentioned it and I'm pretty sure he hasn't registered which makes me feel like I'm being totally over the top about it all. I've just gone back to work as a teacher to a really difficult class and I all I think is I shouldn't be having to deal with this I should be on maternity leave right now, which is completely the wrong mindset I know.

I love that you got your positive on your due date, I know it's so personal and you may not want to connect them but it just feels like your angel was there watching over and waiting for you x x

 

[george83]

I need opinions ladies.

I've been thinking about getting a tattoo in memory of my angel, lyrics to a song. DF isn't 100% on board with it.. he seems to think that if our future children see it and ask what it's for or what it means, they'll think we didn't want them. I don't think they will. I think by the time they understand enough to ask, they'll understand enough to know we love them and we wanted them.

Any opinions welcome.

I spent ages trying to find a tattoo for my angel too but never got one. I'd already decided I wasn't getting anymore but wanted something to remember them by. However I knew that people - for example my mum - would think I was stupid for wanting one. I had decided on a butterfly with blue and pink wings but I think song lyrics are lovely too, I have no suggestions but if you google it there are loads of beautiful quotes. Your future children may not understand while they are young but once they have grown up they will, even if your mc isn't a topic of conversation I'm sure it will have come up at some point with them by the time they are adults

 

[Miniegg27]

I need opinions ladies.

I've been thinking about getting a tattoo in memory of my angel, lyrics to a song. DF isn't 100% on board with it.. he seems to think that if our future children see it and ask what it's for or what it means, they'll think we didn't want them. I don't think they will. I think by the time they understand enough to ask, they'll understand enough to know we love them and we wanted them.

Any opinions welcome.

I'm going to get a tattoo in memory of my lil angel after I've had my rainbow.

 

[LucyLake]

Hi Nimyra,

I hope today is a better day and your blister is disappearing. I'm not sure what it could be either, but sure of one thing, Google is NOT your friend in this instance!!! I just know it's related to your pregnancy and not these scary ridiculous things Google mentions!!

I know how you feel about the dtd'ing, I thought I was the only person on earth who dtd on dpo 7 and then waited until last week in week 13 to try once (and said no way too scary afterward when I thought I was leaking amniotic fluid, it was sperm!!!!! as a result.). I've also had zero desire until week 13 when I briefly felt like a girl again! Lmao. I also need to be sure about the previa issue and would rather not worry. Huge huge hugs

George83, I still haven't bought anything!! I'm glad you did, that is a huge, huge step! . I'm waiting for the gender reveal even though I feel certain I know...but I bet even then I'll be too afraid.

How is everyone else doing? EarthMama, How are the early days

Aloha Lucy! I am doing okay, my emotions have settled down somewhat and I'm just trying to stay optimistic. I have been reading statistics about reoccurring miscarriages in a row and how rare they are and that oddly seems to help. Only 2% of women will have 2 MC in a row. (hope that doesn't offend or upset anyone by me sharing what I read, but I did find it helpful in dealing with my anxiety). So those are pretty good odds. Just trying to stay positive I guess!

So I'm tired most of the time and utterly uninterested in food. Nothing really tastes good anymore, haha...everything seems to taste like 'battery acid' (although I have no basis for comparison on that, lol). I have lost 6 pounds since getting my BFP and that really worries me. I take a few bites of something and feel grossed out and stop eating. I get waves of nausea here and there but nothing debilitating yet. Although I am getting extreme motion sickness, being in a moving vehicle brings me close to throwing up.

So I hope I can keep my appetite up somehow. I don't usually lose weight in the first tri, so that's why I'm worried. Even in my worst nausea with my son I still felt hungry and tried different things so this is different.

I am still having cramping and "sensations" off and on in my uterus! The cramping actually reassures me that something is happening in there, haha! It is interesting because I remember the cramping vividly with my son but even though my uterus was growing with my MC, I never got the cramping! So that's probably why the cramping reassures me...but if I get TOO much cramping, or I don't feel anything, I get worried, lol. Hard to win with the nerves in these early weeks.

Sometimes I do feel more "twinges" and aches on my right side of my body which makes me super worried about ecotopic, but they never last long.

Can't wait for my scan! It's in a few weeks. fingers crossed...

Thanks for checking in! I really appreciate the support you ladies have all given me, thank you so much.

Don't worry about the weight loss EarthMama. . I also lost weight at first and am only up 6 pounds so far now. I cried to my OB that I couldn't keep anything down in those early days, but plain spaghettios. And she said its ok in first tri and all that matters are calories. I had lost a pound last week and really worried, but she conveyed that even though I lost, the babies will still grow and to remember how tiny they are-just lemons.

Your baby or babies (!) are even tinier right now. Hang in there and just do what you can. Even at 14 weeks, I vomit every single morning around 6 am. Baby will be alright. I found it easier to stick with eating the same thing a lot. Soups like minestrone and this rice/spinach concoction seem to agree. Try to find a few things to stick with at first

Your symptoms sound really good!!! I know a lot of us relate to your feelings about the cramps. It's really scary and you want them to stop, then you worry when they do!

Hugs and prayers for your scan! I was thinking yesterday about week 4-5 and how I comforted myself by being relieved that I had time before that inevitable big day. I also just had very low expectations. My first words at the scan were "blighted ovum, right?"

Huge hugs and hope these days go quickly and easily

 

[LucyLake]

I need opinions ladies.

I've been thinking about getting a tattoo in memory of my angel, lyrics to a song. DF isn't 100% on board with it.. he seems to think that if our future children see it and ask what it's for or what it means, they'll think we didn't want them. I don't think they will. I think by the time they understand enough to ask, they'll understand enough to know we love them and we wanted them.

Any opinions welcome.

I love the idea. And I'd definitely tell my future children because in many ways you try even harder for them after a loss . So their big brother or big sister you lost has a lot of meaning for them as well.

I didn't do a tattoo. I did a miscarriage awareness ribbon necklace and a charm bracelet for what we think was a baby boy. Every due date birthday I'll order a new charm. There's a baseball and bat and a Texas longhorn on it now...got it at James Avery--I love their stuff.

Best wishes

 

[twinmummy06]

I need opinions ladies.

I've been thinking about getting a tattoo in memory of my angel, lyrics to a song. DF isn't 100% on board with it.. he seems to think that if our future children see it and ask what it's for or what it means, they'll think we didn't want them. I don't think they will. I think by the time they understand enough to ask, they'll understand enough to know we love them and we wanted them.

Any opinions welcome.

I have two big ones on my inner forearms. One arm dedicated to Aubrey and our other little bean. Other arm with our three children here with us. I love them to bits as they'll always be a part of me.

The twins are almost 7 and have not queried its meaning yet (they can read the side that has their names though). The kids don't know about our loss yet, but when they are a little older we will tell them, especially when they ask about the tattoo.

My opinion is go for it

 

[EarthMama]

Hi Nimyra,

I hope today is a better day and your blister is disappearing. I'm not sure what it could be either, but sure of one thing, Google is NOT your friend in this instance!!! I just know it's related to your pregnancy and not these scary ridiculous things Google mentions!!

I know how you feel about the dtd'ing, I thought I was the only person on earth who dtd on dpo 7 and then waited until last week in week 13 to try once (and said no way too scary afterward when I thought I was leaking amniotic fluid, it was sperm!!!!! as a result.). I've also had zero desire until week 13 when I briefly felt like a girl again! Lmao. I also need to be sure about the previa issue and would rather not worry. Huge huge hugs

George83, I still haven't bought anything!! I'm glad you did, that is a huge, huge step! . I'm waiting for the gender reveal even though I feel certain I know...but I bet even then I'll be too afraid.

How is everyone else doing? EarthMama, How are the early days

Aloha Lucy! I am doing okay, my emotions have settled down somewhat and I'm just trying to stay optimistic. I have been reading statistics about reoccurring miscarriages in a row and how rare they are and that oddly seems to help. Only 2% of women will have 2 MC in a row. (hope that doesn't offend or upset anyone by me sharing what I read, but I did find it helpful in dealing with my anxiety). So those are pretty good odds. Just trying to stay positive I guess!

So I'm tired most of the time and utterly uninterested in food. Nothing really tastes good anymore, haha...everything seems to taste like 'battery acid' (although I have no basis for comparison on that, lol). I have lost 6 pounds since getting my BFP and that really worries me. I take a few bites of something and feel grossed out and stop eating. I get waves of nausea here and there but nothing debilitating yet. Although I am getting extreme motion sickness, being in a moving vehicle brings me close to throwing up.

So I hope I can keep my appetite up somehow. I don't usually lose weight in the first tri, so that's why I'm worried. Even in my worst nausea with my son I still felt hungry and tried different things so this is different.

I am still having cramping and "sensations" off and on in my uterus! The cramping actually reassures me that something is happening in there, haha! It is interesting because I remember the cramping vividly with my son but even though my uterus was growing with my MC, I never got the cramping! So that's probably why the cramping reassures me...but if I get TOO much cramping, or I don't feel anything, I get worried, lol. Hard to win with the nerves in these early weeks.

Sometimes I do feel more "twinges" and aches on my right side of my body which makes me super worried about ecotopic, but they never last long.

Can't wait for my scan! It's in a few weeks. fingers crossed...

Thanks for checking in! I really appreciate the support you ladies have all given me, thank you so much.

Don't worry about the weight loss EarthMama. . I also lost weight at first and am only up 6 pounds so far now. I cried to my OB that I couldn't keep anything down in those early days, but plain spaghettios. And she said its ok in first tri and all that matters are calories. I had lost a pound last week and really worried, but she conveyed that even though I lost, the babies will still grow and to remember how tiny they are-just lemons.

Your baby or babies (!) are even tinier right now. Hang in there and just do what you can. Even at 14 weeks, I vomit every single morning around 6 am. Baby will be alright. I found it easier to stick with eating the same thing a lot. Soups like minestrone and this rice/spinach concoction seem to agree. Try to find a few things to stick with at first

Your symptoms sound really good!!! I know a lot of us relate to your feelings about the cramps. It's really scary and you want them to stop, then you worry when they do!

Hugs and prayers for your scan! I was thinking yesterday about week 4-5 and how I comforted myself by being relieved that I had time before that inevitable big day. I also just had very low expectations. My first words at the scan were "blighted ovum, right?"

Huge hugs and hope these days go quickly and easily

Thanks girl. I'm having a bit of a rough night, pretty emotional again, teary and upset over nothing, over what "could" be, could not be, and the great unknown of what's happening in my uterus. I FEEL pregnant though, so just trying to trust my intuition on this. (never FELT pregnant with my MC, not once).

My womb feels noticeably heavier, particularly when I squat to pee. (since we're out in the jungle a lot, I pee outside frequently) This "heavy womb" feeling reminds me so much of my pregnancy with my son. So I am hoping there is a baby in there and it's healthy.

By my own calculations, I'm currently 5 weeks and 4 days.

I can't stop feeling worried. I imagined I saw a speck of red (the size of a pin-head) on the toilet paper today and freaked out, thought I might have to drive myself to the hospital about an hour away. I almost took myself there and demanded to be scanned today. But then I realized that the speck of red on the toilet paper was in fact just a tiny piece of fuzz, lol. I'm really good at freaking myself out lately. I should be banned from Google.

I did have some nausea today for the first time, not very severe, but enough to be present and annoying and making me want to lie down. Nausea really kicked in by 6 weeks with my son and by 8 weeks I was miserable, so we'll see how things go.

My boobs are mainly just sore around the nipples, and that comes and goes. They did swell a little. I am still breastfeeding and producing milk for my son so I don't know if that effects how many boob symptoms I am getting, but I would imagine it would effect it some because they are already in use.

The one symptom I have that feels truly debilitating right now is the exhaustion. It feels more intense then even my pregnancy with my boy. I feel like I have lead weights on my feet and am just dragging myself around most of the time. Especially after noon hits, I can barely move. Today I had a 3 hour nap with my son and woke up still tired. Probably doesn't help that I am not eating enough calories and wake up at least once or twice for my boy to feed at night. He has been doing nurse-a-thons in the early morning, from 4-6. By the time 6am rolls around, I am just so tired.

I'm so sorry you are still dealing with the vomiting in the morning! My mom had twins (I have identical twin brothers) and she said that the symptoms hit her twice as hard, especially the nausea. I have a friend who had twins (a boy and a girl) and she said the same thing. I hope you will get some relief soon and that it doesn't lay you up too badly. I am still in amazement you are pregnant with twins! So incredible. Truly a blessing.

That's funny you mentioned soup, rice and spinach! The one thing I enjoy eating lately is a kale and quinoa soup, lol. We're on the same wave-length there. I really like the feel of the cooked kale in my mouth and love to think of all the nutrients it has going into my body. It's very appealing right now, hope it stays that way.

Anyway, I think I'm going to do an "internet break" pretty soon, because I cannot seem to stop myself from obsessively researching statistics and anecdotal evidence on various things pregnancy related! Gotta give myself a break, lol. I think I'll probably just keep checking in here and that's it. No more google.

 

[LucyLake]

Hi Nimyra,

I hope today is a better day and your blister is disappearing. I'm not sure what it could be either, but sure of one thing, Google is NOT your friend in this instance!!! I just know it's related to your pregnancy and not these scary ridiculous things Google mentions!!

I know how you feel about the dtd'ing, I thought I was the only person on earth who dtd on dpo 7 and then waited until last week in week 13 to try once (and said no way too scary afterward when I thought I was leaking amniotic fluid, it was sperm!!!!! as a result.). I've also had zero desire until week 13 when I briefly felt like a girl again! Lmao. I also need to be sure about the previa issue and would rather not worry. Huge huge hugs

George83, I still haven't bought anything!! I'm glad you did, that is a huge, huge step! . I'm waiting for the gender reveal even though I feel certain I know...but I bet even then I'll be too afraid.

How is everyone else doing? EarthMama, How are the early days

Aloha Lucy! I am doing okay, my emotions have settled down somewhat and I'm just trying to stay optimistic. I have been reading statistics about reoccurring miscarriages in a row and how rare they are and that oddly seems to help. Only 2% of women will have 2 MC in a row. (hope that doesn't offend or upset anyone by me sharing what I read, but I did find it helpful in dealing with my anxiety). So those are pretty good odds. Just trying to stay positive I guess!

So I'm tired most of the time and utterly uninterested in food. Nothing really tastes good anymore, haha...everything seems to taste like 'battery acid' (although I have no basis for comparison on that, lol). I have lost 6 pounds since getting my BFP and that really worries me. I take a few bites of something and feel grossed out and stop eating. I get waves of nausea here and there but nothing debilitating yet. Although I am getting extreme motion sickness, being in a moving vehicle brings me close to throwing up.

So I hope I can keep my appetite up somehow. I don't usually lose weight in the first tri, so that's why I'm worried. Even in my worst nausea with my son I still felt hungry and tried different things so this is different.

I am still having cramping and "sensations" off and on in my uterus! The cramping actually reassures me that something is happening in there, haha! It is interesting because I remember the cramping vividly with my son but even though my uterus was growing with my MC, I never got the cramping! So that's probably why the cramping reassures me...but if I get TOO much cramping, or I don't feel anything, I get worried, lol. Hard to win with the nerves in these early weeks.

Sometimes I do feel more "twinges" and aches on my right side of my body which makes me super worried about ecotopic, but they never last long.

Can't wait for my scan! It's in a few weeks. fingers crossed...

Thanks for checking in! I really appreciate the support you ladies have all given me, thank you so much.

Don't worry about the weight loss EarthMama. . I also lost weight at first and am only up 6 pounds so far now. I cried to my OB that I couldn't keep anything down in those early days, but plain spaghettios. And she said its ok in first tri and all that matters are calories. I had lost a pound last week and really worried, but she conveyed that even though I lost, the babies will still grow and to remember how tiny they are-just lemons.

Your baby or babies (!) are even tinier right now. Hang in there and just do what you can. Even at 14 weeks, I vomit every single morning around 6 am. Baby will be alright. I found it easier to stick with eating the same thing a lot. Soups like minestrone and this rice/spinach concoction seem to agree. Try to find a few things to stick with at first

Your symptoms sound really good!!! I know a lot of us relate to your feelings about the cramps. It's really scary and you want them to stop, then you worry when they do!

Hugs and prayers for your scan! I was thinking yesterday about week 4-5 and how I comforted myself by being relieved that I had time before that inevitable big day. I also just had very low expectations. My first words at the scan were "blighted ovum, right?"

Huge hugs and hope these days go quickly and easily

Thanks girl. I'm having a bit of a rough night, pretty emotional again, teary and upset over nothing, over what "could" be, could not be, and the great unknown of what's happening in my uterus. I FEEL pregnant though, so just trying to trust my intuition on this. (never FELT pregnant with my MC, not once).

My womb feels noticeably heavier, particularly when I squat to pee. (since we're out in the jungle a lot, I pee outside frequently) This "heavy womb" feeling reminds me so much of my pregnancy with my son. So I am hoping there is a baby in there and it's healthy.

By my own calculations, I'm currently 5 weeks and 4 days.

I can't stop feeling worried. I imagined I saw a speck of red (the size of a pin-head) on the toilet paper today and freaked out, thought I might have to drive myself to the hospital about an hour away. I almost took myself there and demanded to be scanned today. But then I realized that the speck of red on the toilet paper was in fact just a tiny piece of fuzz, lol. I'm really good at freaking myself out lately. I should be banned from Google.

I did have some nausea today for the first time, not very severe, but enough to be present and annoying and making me want to lie down. Nausea really kicked in by 6 weeks with my son and by 8 weeks I was miserable, so we'll see how things go.

My boobs are mainly just sore around the nipples, and that comes and goes. They did swell a little. I am still breastfeeding and producing milk for my son so I don't know if that effects how many boob symptoms I am getting, but I would imagine it would effect it some because they are already in use.

The one symptom I have that feels truly debilitating right now is the exhaustion. It feels more intense then even my pregnancy with my boy. I feel like I have lead weights on my feet and am just dragging myself around most of the time. Especially after noon hits, I can barely move. Today I had a 3 hour nap with my son and woke up still tired. Probably doesn't help that I am not eating enough calories and wake up at least once or twice for my boy to feed at night. He has been doing nurse-a-thons in the early morning, from 4-6. By the time 6am rolls around, I am just so tired.

I'm so sorry you are still dealing with the vomiting in the morning! My mom had twins (I have identical twin brothers) and she said that the symptoms hit her twice as hard, especially the nausea. I have a friend who had twins (a boy and a girl) and she said the same thing. I hope you will get some relief soon and that it doesn't lay you up too badly. I am still in amazement you are pregnant with twins! So incredible. Truly a blessing.

That's funny you mentioned soup, rice and spinach! The one thing I enjoy eating lately is a kale and quinoa soup, lol. We're on the same wave-length there. I really like the feel of the cooked kale in my mouth and love to think of all the nutrients it has going into my body. It's very appealing right now, hope it stays that way.

Anyway, I think I'm going to do an "internet break" pretty soon, because I cannot seem to stop myself from obsessively researching statistics and anecdotal evidence on various things pregnancy related! Gotta give myself a break, lol. I think I'll probably just keep checking in here and that's it. No more google.

Huge hugs it's so scary to admit, but trust your intuition, when you know you know. This pregnancy feels more like the one with my son was one of the first thing I told myself and I just hoped I wasn't wrong

I know all about the fuzz! Why can't they ever be blue? Why are they always bright red?!! in time, it will get easier to go and not expect to see blood. But, even now I still have the bad dreams that I will in my sleep . Definitely understand how you're feeling. Just remind yourself that it was different with the MC. You may see that fuzz, but at least with my MC, there were actually pink/white tiny circular pregnancy cell dots coming out as early as 5w3 (sorry for the tmi) a single piece of fuzz was so different

Your soup sounds so good!!

And your symptoms are perfect! The tiredness is a great sign and the start of nausea!! . My boobs are still not sore and pancakes, but with the MC they started huge and felt like they'd fall off. Hang in there, I've actually come to see very sore boobs at least in my case as not a good indicator of how it's going with the baby

Yes, Google is not a friend right now!! I think in some cases it helps when you lose a symptom a day of two, but by and large it made me worry more

Huge hugs, I truly believe this is your little rainbow. I wonder if you can get a week 6 scan? I definitely wouldn't go in before that until you can see a hb, I had said originally that I want to wait until about 7.5 or 8 wks, but my brown spot brought me in at 6w0.

thank you for your sweet words and all the best

 

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George- yay for your first baby purchase! It's a big step

Due dates are so hard and it's completely normal to feel the way you do. Mine was a hard day for me. My oh probably wouldn't have remembered the date only I kept reminding him. I was afraid he'd forget and I would feel crushed. It's not always the same for men. Thinking of you and sending huge hugs

Mini- I think a tattoo is a beautiful idea to remember your angel. The love you have for your angel doesn't diminish the love for any other children you may have. I'm sure when they are older they will understand. I don't have the nerve to get a tattoo, but I did have a bracelet made in memory and I wear it everyday.

Earthmama- I hope your feeling better. I had absolutely no appetite in weeks 6-7. At my last prenatal appointment I lost a couple pounds, but we still heard a strong hb on the Doppler. With ms it's normal to lose some weight. All your symptoms sound promising! It's impossible not to worry though. I still worry, even after a perfect ultrasound and hearing the hb with the Doppler. Sending hugs and positive thoughts!

Lucy- glad to see things are still going well for you Hope your ms clears soon!

Nimyra- hope your feeling better! Bleeding is scary, even though we know it can be something harmless! I fear seeing blood everytime I go to the bathroom. I've also learned that Google is def not your friend, though I'm terrible for researching things in Google too!