Myshelong, I know just how you feel, you should read my post on fertilityties, when I discovered AF was going to be here. I swear they thought I was going to do something drastic. TTC is never an easy journey for some of us and like all humans we get upset when it does not happen right away. I can tell you about vent because I go through them like crazy to the point of hating people. I have no friends so to speak of as well, because my time is so consume with having a baby. A friend of mine who I think must be the only true one is pregnant and she is in her forties for the ugliest man ever and its hard to be around her because she has nothing to offer this baby, not even a home hence, the thought in the head.
You are a strong person, you will pull out of this dump your are in at the moment. Try taking back up pottery but do it slowly, Scott understand what you are going through and he loves you enough to be there for you in his way. Its the hormones, that positive opk is around the corner give it another two days are so, the mere fact that you are feeling the way you do is speaking value.
I will pray that you get out of this funk very soon, remember you are not alone, I have been ttc for ten years and officially three years so I beat you by one hahaha.
Vent, Vent and Vent again, cry have a piece of dark chocolate then hug your husband and have the best sex ever without thinking about any baby making, try new position or something freaky. I promise you will feel better.
Before Dwayne and I had our falling out. I would make love to him while he is driving home or if we go to the movies feeling him up. Always make us feel better and relax the mind.
See I put a smile on your face.
Cheers and I hope you truly feel better and you get a positive Ovulation soon.
