August loss thread - TTC our rainbows!

[Sunshine14]

Lora so sorry to hear your news hun xx

I got a fr bfp Tuesday and wednesday then it was gone yesterday so a chemical pregnancy and waiting for AF now. Ttc just sucks with the highs and lows really.

 

[Mrsmac02]

Oh Lora , I'm so so sorry hon 💔

 

[Aayla]

Sunshine I sorry to hear of your cp. TTC does suck sometimes.

I have decided to not track anything for the next couple of cycles. Even my temp. I know when I ovulate and I have to get my 7dpo blood drawn. So that will be confirmation enough. I find I am too obsessive overy my temp numbers, whether the cm I saw was fertile or not (or worrying if I see no cm at all).

And for sure no early testing. I nearly always spot a day or two before af is due. So if no spotting then I will test.

 

[Sweety21]

Lora, I am so so sorry for your loss. Hugs.

Sunshine, I am sorry for your loss sunshine. You are right. TTC sucks.

I am scared now to even conceive. Why is it happening so much here? I am worried even if, I conceive in few months to come it will go away

 

[Aayla]

I think they happen far more frequently then people know. They say it is a 20% of conceiving but I think it is far higher and many mcs go unreported or, as in the case of a cp, no one even knows. If I had waited to test until my period was a week late I likely wouldn't have known as I started bleeding 4 days after af was due.
We are a small group on this forum and our thread is but a fraction of a percent of women. Eventually the odds will be in our favor.

 

[Sunshine14]

Thanks Aayla and sweety got af this morning so period was only 3 days late but awful to see positive and then its gone. This is my 7th loss in past two years and I know it's just my age really but doesn't make them any easier. I suppose better now than 10 weeks like my last one. I keep telling myself I only need one good egg but it's proving elusive.
I really think you ladies will be fine though cos you are young and you're right Aayla the odds will go in your favour soon you just have to stay positive.

 

[Mrsmac02]

Oh no sunshine, I'm so sorry. This is just too much, why can't we all just be successful!

I've done another test today at 17dpi and its lighter so looks like this one is headed the same way.

Life is cruel 😢

 

[Sunshine14]

Thanks mrsmac it's just crap. So sorry to hear that Re your test - are you sure? Have you compared it to your test of 48. Hours ago that will show the progression better fingers crossed for you hun x

 

[Mrsmac02]

Yes, I took one 1pm on 15dpo and one this morning at 17dpo and it's definitely lighter. And zero symptoms. It's history repeating itself I can tell X

 

[bubbles82]

So sorry Mrsmac & sunshine, I really can't believe what bad luck we're all having on this thread. So ready to see the back of this year, hopefully 2016 will be a different story for us all x

 

[Mrsmac02]

Me too bubbles! I'm lucky, DS keeps me going

 

[Sunshine14]

Ahh so sorry mrsmac I know exactly how you're feeling. So sorry for your loss too bubbles xx

 

[bubbles82]

I was just thinking this week how I don't have that desperate feeling to have a baby in my arms or even to be pregnant like I had last time, and like many others talk about in the forum. This time I just feel desperate to know that it will happen eventually, preferably that it will work out next time. It's all the not knowing that's really getting to me now, not knowing why it keeps happening, not knowing how many more times I might have to go through it, not knowing if I will ever have another forever baby.
It's strange how I used to think it would be much easier dealing with loss after I already had one baby, as I'd know I had one so it wouldn't matter as much if I couldn't have anymore. That's so not the case though, I want another one for my daughter more than myself, and really feel I'm letting her and my DH down.

 

[Mrsmac02]

Hon, you're certainly not letting people down, especially not DD - she won't know any different.

It's just heartbreaking that we don't know why or when, if, it will be our time again.

Keep your chin up hon xxx

 

[Sweety21]

Oh no, I am sorry Mrsmac. Fx it's just because of diluted irune. But, I know that we know our body better than anyone.

Aayla,sunshine and bubbles may be it is higher than it says. Just hate the feeling that we are part of that percentage.

Bubbles, I know what you mean by not having that urge. I am same this cycle. But, don't think that you are letting anyone down. It will happen soon for us.

 

[danser55]

I had my monitoring appointment this morning. I have 3 large follicles 22 1/2, 18, and 19. Although he said triplets are rare on femara. I have to take estrogen over the next week since my lining was on the thinner side and wanted to do that as a precaution.

 

[Sweety21]

That is great news danser. fx that everything goes well with you.

 

[Mrsmac02]

Eeek that's exciting danser! Fingers crossed for a BFP soon! X

 

[Aayla]

I wonder why they don't monitor me. It seems everyone else gets their follicles monitored but with me they just check to verify if I ovulated. I guess it must depend on the fertility specialist.

CD 8 today. Took my last femara pill yesterday. So now we just BD for the rest of the month. On CD 25 (Dec 31) I will be going in to get my progesterone blood work to verify ovulation. I will ovulate between cd 17 and 19 so I figured I will pick the day in between 7 days later to test. Then to wait until af is due to test.

It is a heck of a lot less stressful to just wing it and not track anything.

 

[danser55]

I wonder why they don't monitor me. It seems everyone else gets their follicles monitored but with me they just check to verify if I ovulated. I guess it must depend on the fertility specialist.

CD 8 today. Took my last femara pill yesterday. So now we just BD for the rest of the month. On CD 25 (Dec 31) I will be going in to get my progesterone blood work to verify ovulation. I will ovulate between cd 17 and 19 so I figured I will pick the day in between 7 days later to test. Then to wait until af is due to test.

It is a heck of a lot less stressful to just wing it and not track anything.

MY RE insists on monitoring me to check, to see what size follicles I have, make sure the femara is doing what it should and that it isn't causing other problems that may affect the ability to get pregnant. If I wasn't being monitored I wouldn't know my lining was on the thinner side and now we are working to fix that problem and do everything we can to get me pregnant.

I would be worried if I wasn't being monitored on all of these drugs.