vicky: don't feel bad. This is the ttc thread. Those who weren't ready to talk about it or hear about a bfp wouldn't be here. and this group is different than hearing about someone on fb because we all know the struggles each of us have with fertility.
Kandl: sorry I didn't post about your messages. That is very odd. I think he may have likened his original message with being raped. In so much that it was out of line and he went too far. So his comparison is that you wouldn't forget about being raped so how have you forgotten about his message? I don't know...grasping at straws. I don't know if he meant it in a bad way and maybe his message just got confused. I would still probably block him.
Bubbles: you will be ready when you are ready. but after reading all of your posts, I believe you have chosen not to tell people what you are going through and maybe it is time to tell a few people. It's your choice of course but even telling those closest to you can help get you through this process. It may help them to understand why you can't make plans or why you've been dodging calls etc. I don't know your family so I have no idea how they would take it. Some people are great and give just the right amount of sympathy and leave it at that, some just want to talk about it all the time (whether you want to or not), and some people are just assholes. I think it's so hard to judge where people are going to fit in within this spectrum. We're already grieving enough, we don't need asshole things said to us. Like my dad. Oh this is good...
So the day after I started bleeding I had a birthday party to go to for my sister. oh yay. i was worried sick, I had gone to the hospital that morning, I was told they saw no signs of pregnancy but the urine test came back positive. So I'm at the party and talking with my parents. My dad had the nerve to tell me that I wasn't really pregant because true pregnancy doesn't start until around the 12 week mark..the approx cut off time in which I could have made the decision to abort the baby.
I tried to argue with him but it was futile, I just had to nod to him that I understood what he was saying and I walked away.
AFM right now: waiting patiently for this day to be done. Didn't have the money to fork out for a test but hubby gets paid tonight so getting him to pick me up a frer on his way home from work in the morning. Tomorrow is Oct 2. I test and tell the doc if it's positive or negative and we then book in the scan. Cramping is gone and spotting is basically gone. I think it was just left over stuff that got pushed out due to moving heavy items. I do hope it's negative. I have just over a week until af is due. FX it stays away to get all this other stuff done.
to everyone.
must have been a random clot and blood that needed to come out 
it doesn't feel right to be happy about that
