mangotango
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Mango - Yep! Do you think you will test this month or just wait for AF? Can't wait to hear about your appt today?
Newlyweds- how are you doing? Have you had any spotting since your last BD session? Hope you're not feeling too worried.
AFM - I think I'm 10 DPO today. I was feeling really optimistic for a couple days and had a dream about having a baby, but today my temps went down lower than they should so I know I'm out. I am so tired of this waiting game and now that I have another friend in RL who's pregnant I'm having a really hard time not feeling behind. Why is it so easy for some people?
Literati, How are you doing? I have to wonder the same as you...why is it so hard for some people and easy for others?? We had a gal come in the other day that thought she miscarried 2 weeks ago, but never followed up with her doctor...guess what, she didn't and this is child #6 for her and she is living in a shelter. I understand that some people have hard times they go through, but $h*!...the last thing I'd be doing is having sex if I was in that situation. And here we sit unsuccessful, plus the girl didn't even seek care for the m/c or prenatal and she thought she was already 3 months at m/c time. wtf? really?
As for us, yup, we have no sperm 99% sure, the urologist said his balls are soft and mushy and a little smaller- as if they never matured as a baby/child. No wonder he has always been "sensitive" to the touch there! so from what urologist has seen (and is specialized in male infertility) even if he had sperm in there, it would not be mature and the only option would be IVF-ISC or ICS or whatever...but that's the difficult expensive stuff. Difficult because they'd have to cut him, biopsy him, check to see if there are even any sperm there, then save the few sperm, mature them, then harvest my eggs, and individually try to fertilize the eggs. We wouldn't be able to even try insemination with his sperm because chances are there is none, and hardly any if there are any, and immature. Basically we have to do a 2nd sperm sample to "confirm" zero sperm...and then we might look at donor sperm artificial insem. I don't want to 1. put him through the cutting/biopsy if there is a slim chance anyway. 2. Even if some sperm, I don't want to put us through the $$$ 3. I don't think I could handle being completely controlled and the large amount of traveling and procedures to harvest my eggs, control my cycles, and place eggs back, and then be devastated if it doesn't work and out $50k. We do not live close to a fertility facility that would do this so it would mean traveling a few hours, plus from knowing what a friend went through, it also means dropping everything as soon as they call and want you in to harvest and implant and do ultrasounds and labs and I do not have a job that is THAT flexible. At that rate, we could adopt a child that needs a loving home, and adopt again later. Or do insemination a few times. Who knows, maybe AI would take on me right away??
I think DH was pretty against AI when we first found out about the sperm issue a month ago, but as the doctor talked about how we can choose features/characteristics and that nobody needs to know but us and the doc...I think he is better with it. Although he is still in a denial..he made a comment, "how about we just keep trying for another year and maybe I'll grow some sperm"...oh hunny...that is delusional and lack of reality. We have to think reality. Yes am I hoping that one sneaks through? absolutely, I hope it every single day. but I know chances are it will never ever ever ever happen. Especially after the doc talked about the way his "balls" are not what they should be.
It's hard because I don't have time for appointments with being back in college for my graduate degree. I'm working full time. We have just enough time for each other and I don't see any friends or family. I don't have time to spend on appointments when I spend my entire days off on homework. Maybe we'll have to plan this during winter or summer break? IDK. God is crazy and I don't understand...but it is what it is.
So, that's me...I'm 12 dpo today...had an odd temp spike the past few days (I put my temps into the charting but the ones from right after O are what I remember, not certain. I know I had some dips and hovering at 97.9-98.0-97.7 but the past few days have been 98.3 and three days ago I woke up soooo warm but didn't temp, and that was the day after that weird CM I had. I wouldn't think that I O'd a whole week late....but that's the kind of temp spike I'm getting....soooooo I guess it's a waiting game. Not that any eggs met sperm anyway.
Enough bummer crap from me...Literati I hope you are doing well...nearing the end of your TWW!! I want to come on here this weekend and see another awesome BFP news from you! You deserve it so much!
Newlyweds, I hope you are doing well too!!