Hey lovelies. Hope you’re all doing great and having a superb weekend so far.
I waited patiently until 12dpo (today) to test, and then did so first thing in the morning.
We waited 3 minutes and then looked at it. And what do you know... An undeniably blue second line.
I wasn’t totally unprepared for it to be positive, because the last days I had sort of a gut feeling that something was up. Mainly because I didn’t have my usual pre-AF spotting, but other than that I actually didn’t have many symptoms at all. Just very fatigued and bloated, and some cramps but NOT period cramps... They were different somehow, not as achy and uncomfortable like AF cramps. Also, dont even have the painful boobs that everybody else always seems to get before their BFP.
I am in shock, it hasn’t fully sunk in yet (and I think it will take some more weeks for it to do so). When we did the test at 7AM, we hugged and were shocked & ecstatic. I always thought I’d cry instantly if I were to look at a positive test, but I was just numb somehow (but happy). We even went back to bed to get some more sleep.
I held myself together pretty well the first few hours after finding out. Made ourselves some breakfast and got on my laptop. Looked up the video "From Conception to Birth" on youtube (a MUST watch - a 4 minutes animation of the whole process from fertilization to birth:
click here), which made me get the feels a little bit, in awe that that is going to be me. But still no real emotional reaction.
Well.... Then the song
"You Say" by Lauren Daigle came up on my playlist (that song has always tugged at my heartstrings) and I just lost it. I bawled. BAWLED. My boyfriend came to me and held me as I just cried of happiness.
It’s so hard to grasp that this is reality now.
We may not have been TTC for long (this was cycle number 3... Third time really is the charm!) but it almost feels like it’s been way longer because there were 2 other cycles this year that we weren’t TTC where I thought I was pregnant (and would have been happy to, even if unplanned). Once in February where my period was 4 days late (and she’s NEVER late) & got all excited until test was negative and AF eventually arrived, then another time in the beginning of July where I’m 95% sure I had a chemical pregnancy. Period was 3 days late, had a faint positive (that I posted here in the gallery section), only to end up having 2 days of the worst cramping and heaviest bleeding + clotting that I ever had. Like, it was shocking how many clots I passed and how big they were. So pretty sure it was a CP. I was absolutely gutted at the time and couldn’t stop crying.
So to finally get a blazing positive feels unreal and just crazy and wonderful. i’m over the moon.
Facetimed my mom (was going to wait to tell her but ughh... just couldn’t) and we both cried together. So cheesy lol.
Also attached my chart, in case it provides some insight for someone!
Hope you sweet wonderful ladies on here get your much deserved BFP’s real soon. I’ll be sure to stick around in this thread so I can see those BFPs rolling in. This community is awesome and it’s made my TTC journey so much more wonderful.
I know it’s still early and a lot can still go wrong, but somehow I am overwhelmed with trust and faith that my little one will be okay. Due date 24th June, 2020.
hate that it's messed up my chart, not to mention I'm hardly going to be in the mood to bd and I really wanted to try every other day this cycle. Hardly romantic 
