September Sapphires

[Uni tsi]

Sweety, I do understand. I get really worried about everything now too. And it's never reassuring to see spotting, even if it is normal. Glad to hear it stopped

 

[InVivoVeritas]

Uni, glad you're feeling better. But don't force yourself to be okay when you're not, both you and the baby you lost are worth the grief. I find that the only way to get through is to take things day by day.

Hopie, like I said in another thread, you're definitely going to the right place. Hope you're feeling much better by now -- don't forget to update us when you can.

Sweety, hope the bleeding has stayed away. This is a terrifying time. x

Me, I'm shuttling between feeling positive about this pregnancy and feeling resigned that it's already over. My head is not a good place to be right now.

 

[ReadynWaiting]

Invivo-I totally get how you feel. I have hope one minute and the next I'm wondering if I can handle another loss. I won't be able to get a scan for 3 weeks and that seems a lifetime away.
Is anyone due for an early scan or had already?

 

[mackjess]

My scan is next thurs at 8 weeks. Super anxious. I'm 38 so I'm also worried about general health problems the baby could have.

 

[Uni tsi]

I'm supposed to go for a scan at 7 weeks. Two weeks away yet. Feels like forever.

 

[ReadynWaiting]

Mack-I'll be 38 next month and have that concern too. I watched several webinars with dr. Sher (specialist in the states) and he believes that age related issues he sees is more so after the age of 40. Although we do have an increase from 30 he doesn't view it as a concern. I had several dr.s last year tell me my eggs were old and that was my issue...really pissed me off.

 

[InVivoVeritas]

Thanks, Ready. That's exactly how I feel, that the time between now and my first scan is as long as the rest of the pregnancy combined.

Mine is at 7+3, 6th Feb. How about you, do you have a date yet?

 

[hopie2015]

Thank you all so much for the support!
After 6 hours at ER they did an ultrasound. We thought it was going same way at first since there was long silence. So then I asked- can you see anything? She said yes-- measuring at 6 wks 4 days, right on time! Then I asked if there was a heartbeat and she said yes- a good rate!! We were SHOCKED. My hcg is a crazy high 95,000 at 6 weeks- that is why I'm so sick.
IV's helped and unfortunately had to have iv of nausea drug and I need to continue on it. I didn't want to use drugs ever during pregnancy but really have no choice if this is hg.

I've been in bed all day and still sick after taking the pill but it does take the constant vomiting away.
I believe this extreme ms is VERY rare, so dont want to scare anybody.

So I am very early and at my age m/c rate is very high. But for now all is okay and no matter what happens, I am so glad OH and I had the amazingly happy ultrasound experience after bad ultrasounds in the past.
Thank you again. Hope to feel better and can catch up on posts tmrw.

 

[InVivoVeritas]

Welcome back, and so glad you're feeling better. I know you don't want to take any meds in pregnancy, but it's in your baby's interests as well as yours that you're at least able to keep water down.

And a huge congrats on the positive ultrasound. It must be a huge weight off your mind to know that despite everything your baby's doing well.

 

[Uni tsi]

hopie that's wonderful news I'm so happy for you!

 

[ReadynWaiting]

Invivo- I will call the mw tomorrow and have an us scheduled for around 7 weeks (feb 8 ish). They pretty much do whatever I ask for because of all of the losses last year. I'm just hoping waiting until the 28th to see the specialist won't be too long!
Hopie-so happy to hear about your positive us. I hope your hg subsides.

 

[hopie2015]

Thank you all so much!
I won't feel secure until after 12 weeks. Honestly I am not very optimistic given my very low progesterone level. I will just keep the faith and trust what is meant to be will happen.
Great ideas on getting the 7+ week early ultrasound. My fingers are crossed for everyone here!!

Zofran didn't work today so have to call doc.

Keeping the hope and faith!

 

[Uni tsi]

Hopie, Sorry to hear zofron isn't working. I hope you get some relief soon! I have a good feeling for you that you will get to 12 weeks and beyond, all the way to the end with no problem!

I seem to be having a different sort of issue from usual MS where everything is flushing out the other direction (tmi sorry). I'm starting to worry that I'm not getting to absorb any nutriments because it's all going through too quickly. It's probably gotten worse the last day because a side effect of the metformin they started me on for blood sugar control is GI issues. Anyone here taken metformin for GD or PCOS? Can anyone tell me how long this misery will last? I can't even leave the house

edit - is that supposed to be someone playing the world's smallest violin, or just someone playing a regular violin? I can't tell lol

 

[ReadynWaiting]

Sorry you ladies are having a rough time. I hope things get better soon.

 

[Uni tsi]

Yeah, I didn't have this problem last pregnancy. It's really taken me by surprise. I hope everyone else is doing alright?

Only 15 more days till my first scan.

 

[Sweety21]

Hello ladies,how is everyone today?

 

[Wishing_well]

Can I join?
Im due September 25th, but still in denial and disbelief - after 8 miscarriages last year, I'm totally not trusting it yet.

 

[hopie2015]

Wishing well- congrats and welcome! I am wishing you all the luck in the world this is your take home baby.

Uni- sorry I'm not familiar with that drug. Call the doctor to see what they suggest you do? I'm sure baby is still getting nutrients, so try not to worry about that.

My poor baby- I havent been able to take or keep a prenatal down for 5 days..and still no water besides at the hospital. This hg is unreal.
Thank you for the awesome encouragement Uni!

Sweety- how are you doing?
I am giving up worrying because it wont change a thing and what is meant to be, will be.

Feel better soon, Uni

 

[ReadynWaiting]

Wishing-I have everything crossed for you!

Hopie- I dread the nausea but it gives me reassurance that things are progressing. I hope your time goes quickly and the nausea subsides.

Uni-I'm sure 15 days seems forever away but it will come and you will get to see bean and all will be ok.

I had my progesterone come back at 111 nmol/l for 13/14 dpo(hcg 177). Does anyone know if this is high enough? I didn't hear back from the dr.

 

[Uni tsi]

wishing_well, welcome to our little group. We're all hoping 2016 will be a better year, and on my best days I know it will be! I'm so sorry to hear you've had to experience so many losses. Hopefully, this time you will have the outcome you seek. fx crossed for you! and for all of us!

I think my issues are subsiding today. I've been reading up on metformin, and it sounds like a really great thing, if I can get past the unpleasant side effects. Even if I'm running to the loo a lot, I feel like it's safer for me than insulin. From what I'm reading, it even helps make sure the little bean stays sticky so it might be doing more than just keeping my sugars under control. Normally, I'm not an enthusiastic consumer of prescription meds, but this one seems really safe. I think it's just been flushing the extra sugars out of my system, hopefully once my levels are normal the side effects will go away. Doc said to just give it a little more time.

I don't know if I've said, but part of my story is that I ended up with gestational diabetes last time. They said I had such good control of my blood sugar, no extreme highs or lows, that it didn't have anything to do with the outcome. But, afterwards, with the extra weight gain from the pregnancy, my bloodsugar never went down to normal. I was considered prediabetic. But, as soon as I got pregnant, I automatically became diabetic again because gestational diabetes has a lower diagnostic threshold compared to regular type 2. So, this early and I already have gestational diabetes, which puts me at a high risk for all sorts of problems including another stillbirth. It's got me all sorts of worried.

I'm happy to get pregnant again so soon, but nervous about not having more time to get my health under better control. Wait, have I posted all this before? I think I might be repeating myself

The only silver lining is that I won't have to take that yucky syrup drink for the diabetes test this time. That stuff is just gross! Like the nastiest gaterade flavor you can imagine.

hopie you set such a brave example for us. I hope you get some relief soon

ready, I wish I could comment on your numbers but I've never had my levels tested so I don't know what's normal. Hopefully, not hearing anything back from the doc yet is a good sign, as if there was an issue hopefully they'd call right away.

I am looking forward to that first scan. Only 14 more days! Unfortunately, there is no point along this journey where I will have any actual reassurance until I'm holding a live baby. Just to warn you all in advance, I'll just get more and more freaked out as time goes on the problem with a late-term stillbirth is there is now no point at which I'll be able to relax and say "from here it will all be ok". Now, with the diabetes, there is even more to worry about that might go wrong. I feel like all my risk factors have gone up compared to last time.

wow this post got long. I wasn't intending to blab on and on this much! I really prefer not to make such long posts, and just see how everyone else is doing because you ladies inspire me so much to be brave and keep positive