Sticking Together Until We All Get BFP's!!!!

[aidensmommy1]

Well ladies..... Going back into the trenches today. 19 school days ans 26 total days (including today) until I'm done for the summer! I won't be on until about 1:45 though since that's when my lunch is.

I hope you have a great first day back! And hopefully time will fly and u'll be on summer vaca before u know it!

 

[Megamegan]

Sweetmelodies- Were you testing the past few days with the same tests and not getting any lines? Hopefully the aren't evaps! Can't wait to see FRER Your chart does look great!!

Jess- Good luck today! Maybe it will be nice to have something to do to keep your mind off things, as long as you don't over exert yourself

Mary- Your chart looks pretty great, girl. It is definitely a little different than any other cycle. I have my fingers crossed for you. Miracles do happen.

 

[aidensmommy1]

Thank you! . I'm sooooo scared to test again! I'm wishing for a miracle so badly right now!! I should've just stopped temping after O and stayed in my NTNP mode and I wouldn't be seeing this beautiful chart messing with me! I cant help it but to temp tho! Lol I like it too much

FX for us all!!!! There are soo many nice looking charts this cycle!

 

[Wishing1010]

 

[SweetMelodies]

Sweetmelodies- Were you testing the past few days with the same tests and not getting any lines? Hopefully the aren't evaps! Can't wait to see FRER Your chart does look great!!

I tested yesterday 10dpo and thought I saw a really really light line but then I dipped another two and nothing. So assumed I was just seeing things. 7,8,9dpo same tests from the order I got online and they were all negative.

I checked the lot number and they are all from the same lot.I pulled my tests out of the garbage (eww I know heh) the ones from 7, 8 and 9 dried stark white, and I didn't realize it but the 3 I took yesterday after I thought I saw a line all dried with light but visible lines. So..now I just have not not go insane waiting for the FRER lol

I saved my FMU from this morning so i could test it right away..

 

[mdscpa]

Thank you! . I'm sooooo scared to test again! I'm wishing for a miracle so badly right now!! I should've just stopped temping after O and stayed in my NTNP mode and I wouldn't be seeing this beautiful chart messing with me! I cant help it but to temp tho! Lol I like it too much

FX for us all!!!! There are soo many nice looking charts this cycle!

Great temp rise today Mary. FX'd to you. I hope you get your May miracle....

 

[Wishing1010]

Sweetmelodies- Were you testing the past few days with the same tests and not getting any lines? Hopefully the aren't evaps! Can't wait to see FRER Your chart does look great!!

I tested yesterday 10dpo and thought I saw a really really light line but then I dipped another two and nothing. So assumed I was just seeing things. 7,8,9dpo same tests from the order I got online and they were all negative.

I checked the lot number and they are all from the same lot.I pulled my tests out of the garbage (eww I know heh) the ones from 7, 8 and 9 dried stark white, and I didn't realize it but the 3 I took yesterday after I thought I saw a line all dried with light but visible lines. So..now I just have not not go insane waiting for the FRER lol

I saved my FMU from this morning so i could test it right away..

So so so so so excited for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Impatiently awaiting your FRER now

 

[aidensmommy1]

Sweetmelodies, tell dh to hurry up! I'm impatiently waiting!! Lol . Veryy excited!

Dh and I are at an interview hoping to get dh into a better job . FX this goes good! We need it right now! I'm sick of us having to worry about the season for him to be able to work. He loves landscaping but he knows its just not a reliable enough job when you have bills like most people do so I'm praying this goes good!!
When I get home I decided ill use my other frer line test so ill keep u girls posted about that!

 

[Wishing1010]

Woohooo on all of that, Mary!!!!! So excited for you all, FX he gets this job and FX for your testing!

 

[SweetMelodies]

Sweetmelodies, tell dh to hurry up! I'm impatiently waiting!! Lol . Veryy excited!

https://s17.postimg.org/f1pjt8zsf/IMG_20140512_130922_936.jpg

Results after the 3 mins...omg...


I have one more so Ill take it in the morning just to see it darker I hope!

 

[SweetMelodies]

I don't know what to do with myself lol! Yay!!

 

[Wishing1010]

Omg omg omg OMG omg omg omg!!! Congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yayyyyy!!!!

 

[SweetMelodies]

Omg omg omg OMG omg omg omg!!! Congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yayyyyy!!!!

I'm really surprised I wasn't expecting it at all this cycle I'm in shock. The only thing I noticed different this cycle was that my legs were killing me at night, I normally have aching legs at night but they have been horrible the last few days. Aside from that, nothing else. Except this silly sore throat and just feeling ill atm.

 

[mdscpa]

CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Megamegan]

AAAAAAHHHHH!!!!! I am sitting in the parking lot of the hospital and I just squealed at the sight of your positive test!!!!! YOU ARE PREGNANT!!! I'm so so happy for you and I'm a little emotional so I'm totally crying tears of happiness lol

As for me, I'm so freaking incredibly relieved to be done with my first fertility appointment!!! I was super anxious about it. My pelvic exam was normal and he ordered a semen analysis for DH, and an HSG and a pelvic ultrasound for me! So if no BFP next week, I'll be doing some tests which will make me feel better. My doctor told me like 75% of women will get pregnant right after an HSG so he seemed confident that it would happen for me soon. It would be awesome if I got my BFP this cycle and didn't have to do any of this, but I am happy to have something to look forward to if AF shows, which I have a feeling she will. Man, I am relieved. I guess I was just nervous he was going to see something abnormal, but the tests I'll do next week will be much more informative. Well that's it, I was anxious to tell someone so thank God I have you girls to talk to!! I don't want to tell my mom or sister about this unless something isn't right because I don't want them to worry and I also think they will tell me I don't have to go through all this testing and I should just relax. I can't really talk to my mom about TTC because she doesn't get how important it is to me and how hard I'm trying. The doctor was really impressed that I was tracking my ovulation and using Preseed, by the way! Haha. Thanks to this forum.

 

[SweetMelodies]

AAAAAAHHHHH!!!!! I am sitting in the parking lot of the hospital and I just squealed at the sight of your positive test!!!!! YOU ARE PREGNANT!!! I'm so so happy for you and I'm a little emotional so I'm totally crying tears of happiness lol

As for me, I'm so freaking incredible relieved to be done with my first fertility appointment!!! I was super anxious about it. My pelvic exam was normal and he ordered a semen analysis for DH, and an HSG and a pelvic ultrasound for me! So if no BFP next week, I'll be doing some tests which will make me feel better. My doctor told me like 75% of women will get pregnant right after an HSG so he seemed confident that it would happen for me soon. It would be awesome if I got my BFP this cycle and didn't have to do any of this, but I am happy to have something to look forward to if AF shows, which I have a feeling she will. Man, I am relieved. I guess I was just nervous he was going to see something abnormal, but the tests I'll do next week will be much more informative. Well that's it, I was anxious to tell someone so thank God I have you girls to talk to!! I don't want to tell my mom or sister about this unless something isn't right because I don't want them to worry and I also think they will tell me I don't have to go through all this testing and I should just relax. I can't really talk to my mom about TTC because she doesn't get how important it is to me and how hard I'm trying. The doctor was really impressed that I was tracking my ovulation and using Preseed, by the way! Haha. Thanks to this forum.

thank you, I'm happy and scared lol.

I hope everything works out with your tests! Sounds like you have a good doctor. Yes please do try to relax

 

[Wishing1010]

Def sounds like you have a good doc, Megan!!!! So exciting that you are going to have a back up plan if this month is a bust. Have everything crossed for you that you get your BFP super soon!!!

SweetMelodies, I'm so ecstatic for you!! So awesome that one of the "originals" got their BFP! Wooohooooooo!!!!!

I'm going to break down and buy some OPK's today, maybe that will help me figure out what's going on with my crazy body

 

[MissB1979]

Congrats SweetMelodies!

 

[MarieMo7]

Congrats SweetMelodies!!! Amazing news!

 

[AmySan]

Omg!! Congrats to the BFPs!!!! 9 years that is unbelievable!! Congrats to you both!! So happy for you!!!!

Jess, my experience with painkillers (which i have way too much unfortunately) is constipation is always so common, then it does go from being so contipated to just crazy diarrhea and weirdness...opiates slow everything down, but then when you either get off of them or your body kindof adjusts, everything is totally messed up for a while! I hope you don't have anything serious and it is just related to that

I have had a horrible weekend Was supposed to have a sleepover at Mike's on Saturday....well, around 4pm on Saturday he sent me a really long text saying that he couldn't do it any more...and felt responsible for everything I had been through the past few months, being int he hospital 4 times, etc...and he is so traumatized by everything he needs to process the last few months before he 'can be anything to anyone' - I was completely devastated, crying and having a panic attack, wailing, it was awful My brother and his fiancee (who used to be my best friend, but she lives with us) helped calm me down a bit, and then my brother called Mike (I called him immediately after getting the text and basically said no, you are not doing this over text message or the phone and I am coming over to talk at 7)

Jim, my brother, called him about 30 minutes after I talked to him to explain some things, and tell him from what he has seen, Mike has been the best thing in my life, and that all of these things that have happened are a result of my past and no coping skills, etc....

So then I went to Mike's (he fucking changed his locks while i was in the hospital...I don't remember if I mentioned I had keys made for us) but he felt like he needed to do that because he didn't know if I would give him the key back. That really fucking hurt.

Anyway, we talked for about 2 and a half hours, and came to the agreement that we would both get help, he is going to see a psychologist of him own, and I will start DBT therapy and possibly get a new psychologist. We are going to keep trying, but almost like start over...We agreed to get together twice a week for dinner and maybe more...I am relieved that this is the case. I am so sad that things aren't just going to go back to normal...but I truly love him and feel terrible for everything that has happened.

In the back of my mind, I don't know if I should try to become less attached or start looking for someone else. I know that sounds terrible. I do not cope with breakups well, but Mike is literally the best, most normal, stable, nicest guy I have ever been with.

We haven't had sex in 1 month today. It feels like an effing eternity. He also feels bad that he just can't right now, he said he barely can 'have sex with himself' - so it won't be happening any time soon...or any baby making either.

I feel so alone Friday night, I did something I regret immensely. My brother had some friends over, and there was a guy there that (I know, this is horrible) got out of prison recently. I never ever in a million years would have any interest in someone like that. Somehow my inhibitions went out the window, and he was extremely persistent about how he wanted to go down on me. I have no idea how I let it happen. But I did. I didn't do anything else, but I can't believe I let him do that It has been so hard not feeling close to someone for so long. The whole situation makes me want to throw up Of course I didn't say anything to Mike, because it would just hurt him. In the back of my mind I wanted to get back at him for the things he did online. But after he got caught, he has been so honest and sorry about it. I feel like a horrible person, and am so ashamed

All I can do at this point is just get help and let him get help and see if we can make things work. I want it to work so so much. But I am also having feeling like, it took so long to make the progress that we had...and get him used to not being alone all of the time..that we have gone backwards so much. I don't know.

And of course Mother's day was horrid I can't miss a single day of work for the next 7 months now. Have gone through ALL of my PTO for medical reasons. plus a day over. Had a meeting with my bosses on Friday. They don't want to lose me, but wanted to make sure I thought that I could do it. I was so scared Saturday that I wouldn't be able to work, because I was so distraught...I don't know what will happen.

Praying that the DBT therapy helps, and everything turns out ok. At this point it doesn't look like I will even have the chance to get pregnant for months if not years. Which should be the least of my concerns, but I know you ladies are the only ones who will understand what I mean. more than anything I want to have a child with Mike, who I love, and know will be a great father. And at the same time, I am worried that I will miss my window, and never have the chance to be a mom.

Sorry for the book. I love you girls so much I don't know what I would do without all of you