Thank you both! today i feel REALLY good... kind of makes me wonder whats going on. My mom called this morning and made little jokes like "are you not coming over because your sick this AM??? or have you been sick in the afternoon?!?!" im like 'uhhh no.... i just woke up. that's why im not coming over." I understand she really wants more grandkids but it sucks waiting this wait on if i am. she has no idea im TTC, but my sister recently got pregnant and i know she would love if i got pregnant also. If its not this month, i can try next! im just so impatient. i admire the ladies who have tried for a long time and are staying as positive as they can, and wont give up.
Its def very hard to stay patient while TTC! I'm on cycle #20 and I'm just barely learning to have a little more patience..lol. Ugh, why cant it just happen the first month, right when we want it to?! That'd def make life easier! Lol. Thank you for that comment at the end. Idk why but even though I was diagnosed with a blocked tube, I'm just convinced the enzyme therapy im doing is going to open my tube and something inside wont let me give up, even if I wanted to. I know we'll get our forever baby together, whether it's naturally or through IVF when we have the funding. I have 1 son, he's 6, and although my dh acts as his father and has for years now, I really hope we can be lucky enough to have a baby together. So its TTC #2 for me and #1 for him.
Anyway, Ive had both of my bffs conceive and give birth since I found out about my tubal issues in march and that made me want it THAT much more and same with EVERY bfp announcement so I can see how your sisters recent bfp would make you want it even faster! Its in our nature...lol. I truly hope you get your bfp asap! And I like that you have a positive look on it all, like myself. I always make a "plan" for the next cycle so that IF AF is to show her ugly face, I'm all ready to get started on the next cycle, u know? Sorry this was so long....ull soon see that I like to write alot of "short stories" lol.

Good Luck!!