OK I AM REALY REALY sorry i dont know what to think say or do my body is completly shutting down i feel as if i have let every one down i blame my self as i have a condition called "Myasthenia gravis" this is what i beleive is making lose faith in conciieving as there is nothing to stop it happening im sorry if i have upset any of you but my midwives beleives that i have to postnatal depression but how can i dont have my baby in my arms to get depressed i just want to break down as this was not sported before hand :'( xx
Two points, I don't know anything about Myasthenia gravis apart from what I've just learnt on Google but the main point seems to be that it affects the skeletal muscles, the cervix isn't a skeletal muscle so it seems unlikely to me that it would affect your ability to carry to full term.
You don't have a problem conceiving, you've been pregnant twice, I think the best thing you could do is not to try and get pregnant straight away but to give your body (and mind) time to heal and recover for at least three months - That's the recommended time that doctors suggest before TTC again after a miscarriage.
Second point, do you think ladies that have still births at 30+ weeks aren't able to suffer from PND?
It's got nothing to do with whether you have a baby in your arms, it's all to do with the feelings that being pregnant and/or giving birth cause.
What hasn't been spotted before? The Myasthenia gravis? Or the PND?
Give yourself time to grieve for Gods sake, you've just had two miscarriages very close together, or is your need for a baby going to overwhelm everything, including your mental health?