I know isn't that crazy!! Well not great news AF came early, I guess I just have to be happy I can start another cycle
I have never had blood work but she said if I still didn't get a bfp with in 6 cycles (1 more to go) then I would come back in for blood work. I think I just want to do it now though! How long have you been TTC, best of luck to you!!
so sorry about AF! but as you said, at least you get to start another cycle! So heres my story: my hubby and I were using the pull out method for an entire year and it worked..last May, I was SUPER late and had nausea, etc, so we were convinced I was pregnant. I took a bunch of tests and they were all negative and then I eventually got my period, but we were both so disappointed that we decided we should stop preventing. So we stopped preventing some of the times, and others we would still prevent..it was always kind of a last minute decision ahha. My hubby would get anxious bc I still had one more year of law school and he didnt want me to get distracted.
the end of July and first 2/3 of August last year was the month of Ramadan so we were fasting like 10 hours per day, and then at the mosque until 2 or 3 am every night, so we wound up not bd'ing all month. 2 days after the end of ramadan, we finally bd'd and rt before hubby was about to pull out I told him "Im like one week away from my period! Theres NO WAY I can get pregnant right now!" and he was like "Are you sure?!?!" and I was like "YES!" so...he didnt pull out and lo and behold, two weeks later, I had a bfp. I was COMPLETELY SHOCKED!! I literally was like hyperventalating hahha. Anyway, so 3 days after my bfp, I started bleeding
I mc later than night in the emergency room.
Everyone said teh first time is a fluke..lots of ppl mc their first pregnancy, etc etc etc. But I was still devastated...so then october and november my period was kind of normalizing [isnt that weird how even such an early mc can effect stuff?!] and then January 3rd I had my period exactly on time [the first time since the mc]..that month was another month we didnt bd much bc he was busy at work and school had started again for me, I think we bd'd like twice. I wound up getting preg again that month [its always the month we dont bd much and I think its impossible ahha]..I mc a week later, iin feb.
By then, there was clearly a problem so the dr I made an appt with when I had started bleeding told me I might have a luteal phase defect and she was going to put me on progesterone. She said that I shouldnt try/start the progesterone until after my next cycle..that was March. I didnt ovulate in March. But that is the month we ACTUALLY started "trying-trying" in terms of using opks [I kind of had to because of the progesterone timing] and I realized that I ovulate super late in my cycle [hence the august/sept bfp when I thought it was too late to get preg]...so temping and opk's have confirmed what she thought the prob may be. Last cycle I had what would have been a 7 day luteal phase had it not been for the progesterone. This cycle would have been a 10 day luteal phase. Based on my past two bfps, I think I get preg the months my luteal phase is on the 10 day side as opposed to the 7 day side. But obviously, I still couldnt maintain the preg. I am just hoping the progesterone was the issue and I can sustain the next pregnancy
So..I guess in the grand scheme of things, I have not been really trying for all that long, but I guess just the time thats elapsed from the first pregnancy and mc until now is what makes me super frustrated and emotional. I am happy that I can conceive, I just live in fear that we think its this easy progesterone fix, but next time I conceive, God forbid if I miscarry again, I will have to face the reality that there is a much bigger problem. I am sooo scared of the what if.
In any case, I am 10 dpo today, still have a stuffy nose and congested chest, feel al ittle feverish. But bfn on first resposne and wondfo. I also had a melt down last night and sobbed bc I was telling my husband "what if Im NOT pregnant?!" and "what if I AM but then we lose the pregnancy again?!" He just says "so what if youre not this month..we try again next month!"--i feel like he doesnt get it
its MY body thats the issue, so I always feel like I need to get preg and have a baby to be "not defective" if you know what I mean. Its not even a pressure from him, hes always awesome, but its just...I dont even know. I just hope i am actually preg
....not even a faint line. Is it ever gonna happen?? On to cycle #16. UUUUUGGGHHH!
I am getting totally impatient, and seriously pissed at my body.
