Just got back from the hospital. We where there for two hours, didn’t see a doctor as they were busy with maternity patients and I got upset waiting for so long as I know there isn’t actually anything they can do and it’s in the maternity ward and seeing everyone happy and hearing babies was just too much. They’ve taken bloods and given me a pot to put anything that comes out into, as they want to do genetic testing, Doctor will phone with results in a couple hours or so. But I’ve just got home and taken another test and it is a bit darker again (bottom one) and I’ve peed loads today. I don’t know whether that means this morning was a fluke, or that now is the fluke, it all feels so cruel. I just hope it’s okay but think I’m being so naive as anyone else in this position I would be thinking the worst. I’m not religious at all but I’m even saying a prayer!! I would give anything for this to be okay, and now I’m terrified of it was okay I’ve probably just ruined it by being so upset anyway! At least I’ve had a beta so depending on whether things get worse or stay the same, I can find out what’s happening in a couple days for sure.