Hi all! Hope everyone is doing ok! I havent heard from many of you on here.
As for me, still waiting on AF. I realized today after reading Rai's BFP and seeing those tests, which I am ecstatic about
![Happy Dance :happydance: :happydance:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/happydance2.gif)
, that I havent held a positive test in 9 years and 9 months.
![nope :nope: :nope:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/nope.gif)
![Cry :cry: :cry:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/cry.gif)
My daughter will be 10 this year and I can honestly say that I have been trying to give her a brother or sister on and off for that entire time. Maybe not as much TTC driven but it has always been on my mind. Will it ever happen? I just got remarried last year and wouldnt you know it, he has fertility issues as well. ( I think men and women needed to be tested before marriage to see if they can conceive, that way you wont be as heartbroken, and can make other decisions.) Test after test, nothing. Im starting to think that maybe I should just give it up and be happy for everyone else. I was thinking on the way to work today, how we wait our whole lives for this and now I feel like Im being denied it. PCOS, male factor fertility issues, Im 35 and DH is 36, no AF, 12 months trying to conceive just this one and we want 4 together, just feeling like this isnt going to happen for us
![Shrugg :shrug: :shrug:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/srug.gif)
![Shrugg :shrug: :shrug:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/srug.gif)
. Month after month, fake symptoms, and then bam cycle or in the case for this month 30 days and still no AF. Yeah Im taking provera and I have 4 more days of this crap, but Im thinking what if I take it and my cycle still doesnt come, because Ive read that happening before to other women?? Its a sunny, warm friday here in the South but it might as well be raining because thats how I feel today. Like crap!
Sorry
![Cry :cry: :cry:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/cry.gif)