As long as I make it past finals, I'll be happy. She'll be full term (technically) by then anyway. Even my OH says that I look like I can go into labor at anytime lol...I think because she's dropped so much...that combined with her most recent growth spurt really makes me look like I'm ready to 'pop' lol. I've been getting BH really often...sometimes they come really regularly, too so I'm pretty sure she'll be on her way in the next 2-3 weeks.
As for the baby shower, I don't know. My mom has bought her some clothes (mostly summer dresses that she found on sale) and that's it. She'll call me every now and then to make sure I'm still pregnant and she didn't miss the birth. As you all know, I haven't talked to one of my sisters since before I've gotten pregnant and the only thing she's said about it was something about I should be careful not to catch HIV/AIDS from my OH because it happened to a friend of hers. Ironically enough, DS spent Thanksgiving with her and her OH...I didn't have any say about it...my mother made the decision and decided to inform me about it later. She couldn't understand why I was so upset about it and basically told me to get over it and be the "bigger person". My OH and I have had our rough patches in the past. When we first met and were "talking", he did started seeing someone else behind my back...but that was over 2 years ago. I had stopped talking to him for a few months, but after we reconciled, there hasn't been any other "incidents" since. My mother and sisters (who are all single) believe that "once a cheater, always a cheater". I can't say that about OH because he's been working hard to regain and keep my trust since we've gotten back together. We've had our ups and downs but have both been putting forth a sincere effort to build a solid and wholesome foundation for ourselves and our family. All I hear from my family are comments like "you're better than me..." and when I ask them what they mean by it, they can't or won't explain themselves. Even my bff was a bit taken aback when I mention that things are working out for us. So I feel like the only person I really have is my OH...and it makes me really sad, honestly
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My father's side of my family has virtually disappeared since I told my grandmother that I was expecting once when we were emailing back and forth. All she said was, "Good luck with your new pregnancy.". I've tried contacting my aunt whom I had been in constant contact with and she never returns my calls or texts anymore. :Shrug: I don't know why.
I don't know...I'm kinda in a bummed mood today.
I feel like I shouldn't be...but I get kinda down sometimes because I do wish I had the support of friend and family. My mom has already said, "This is your baby with [OH]..."...she said some other stuff after that that made think that she really doesn't want to be involved because of her feelings toward my OH. I don't know why she feels the way she does, honestly...I think it's mostly because he's not a high paid professional (i.e. a doctor or lawyer). When I mention that, she always says, "It's your life do with it what you want...you can waste your time on whoever you choose to..."
On a brighter note, I received some really good feedback from one of my professors. I've been worried about my grades, especially in the two classes that he teaches but he told me that I don't have a reason to worry...if I keep doing what I'm doing, I should get an A in both courses. That made me happy because I've really been focused this semester. He told me that he knew I was smart, but I've really surpassed his expectations this semester.
At least I get positive feedback from somewhere...according to my mother, I'm not going to do my best because OH is a distraction.
Sorry for the long rant/sob story...I really don't have anyone to talk to except for OH and although he's really compassionate and tries to be understanding, I don't want to keep bombarding him with my stresses all of the time...he's says that's what he's here for but I don't want him to start to think that I'm just a "Debbie downer".
Well I have to go, I'll talk to you lovely ladies later.
. I have so much baby stuff to do. Hubby keeps saying wait for baby shower but whatever, I aint thinking about him
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