LadySosa
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Good morning ladies,
Sars - I'm so sorry about the work layoffs. I cannot imagine the kind of somber mood everyone must be in afterward. I think its normal to feel a little guilty as a "survivor" - but just know that you having nothing to feel guilty about. The stress is not good for you now. Hang in there!
Beagle - that is good that you are not getting worried. Best to have a carefree stance on things, since it sounds like this may be normal. Sorry you're feeling so achey at the end of the day. When I was feeling crummy (when I THOUGHT I was pregnant, hehe), my hubby was so sweet, he filled this little tub with warm water and bubbles for my feet to soak in. It felt awesome since I couldn't take a hot bath. Maybe try that at the end of the day.
Terri - how did the trigger go?
Kfs - argh! Sorry you have to wait so long to bd! I would be frustrated too (and DH most certainly)!
Afm, my appointment went okay. I almost burst into tears in the doctors office. She's so breezy about things, she's like, "sorry it didn't work, blah blah blah. Let's wait until your period comes naturally, then start on BC for 2-4 weeks, then Lupron for a couple weeks, then we can schedule the transfer." When I saw that timeline I just felt so defeated. I wanted to start crying. I'm so sick of the stupid calendar and the waiting. And it annoys the crap out of me that every time I see her, she's like, "what meds did you take again? Who is your nurse that you're working with? Do you have regular periods?" She even asked me how many embryos we have left. I'm like, 'do you even remember anything about me?!' It just feels so impersonal. I know she's a little older (like maybe late 50's), and she's got a lot on her plate, but it's frustrating that this means SO MUCH to us and she acts like she has no idea who we are or what the hell is going on. She'd emailed me earlier about a non-medicated cycle, then when we met she didn't mention anything about it. Sounds like it will be medicated again (which is good).
I asked her about PGS. And man, am I glad I did. I am also a little annoyed that they never mentioned it as an option. If I wasn't on this board, I would've never known to ask. She's like, "well, statistically, its the same result, whether you transfer an abnormal embryo or throw it away." I'm thinking, well yes, statistically it is, but then at least I can avoid the false hope and then heartbreak when I get a BFN. Which, again, is a big deal to me (maybe not to them!). So, they are looking into cost and insurance coverage for us. Cost is around $5k, so the question will be if insurance will cover it. For those who have insurance coverage, was your PGS covered? DH will not go for it if its not covered. :/
Anyways, my aunt also passed away yesterday, not sure if I'd mentioned it already. She has been struggling with ALS for the past year, and the disease just took over her body and they took her off life support yesterday. We were not close, and honestly she was an alcoholic/drug addict and the black sheep of the family. But still, it is sad to see someone you've known your entire life die. She was only about 50. My mom is the oldest of 5 siblings, and this was her baby sister. No matter what questionable things she's done in her lifetime I know its really been hard on my mom. Thinking about her really does put things into perspective. It makes the infertility stuff seem a lot less important. I am so thankful for my health and my DH and other family's health!
Sars - I'm so sorry about the work layoffs. I cannot imagine the kind of somber mood everyone must be in afterward. I think its normal to feel a little guilty as a "survivor" - but just know that you having nothing to feel guilty about. The stress is not good for you now. Hang in there!
Beagle - that is good that you are not getting worried. Best to have a carefree stance on things, since it sounds like this may be normal. Sorry you're feeling so achey at the end of the day. When I was feeling crummy (when I THOUGHT I was pregnant, hehe), my hubby was so sweet, he filled this little tub with warm water and bubbles for my feet to soak in. It felt awesome since I couldn't take a hot bath. Maybe try that at the end of the day.
Terri - how did the trigger go?
Kfs - argh! Sorry you have to wait so long to bd! I would be frustrated too (and DH most certainly)!
Afm, my appointment went okay. I almost burst into tears in the doctors office. She's so breezy about things, she's like, "sorry it didn't work, blah blah blah. Let's wait until your period comes naturally, then start on BC for 2-4 weeks, then Lupron for a couple weeks, then we can schedule the transfer." When I saw that timeline I just felt so defeated. I wanted to start crying. I'm so sick of the stupid calendar and the waiting. And it annoys the crap out of me that every time I see her, she's like, "what meds did you take again? Who is your nurse that you're working with? Do you have regular periods?" She even asked me how many embryos we have left. I'm like, 'do you even remember anything about me?!' It just feels so impersonal. I know she's a little older (like maybe late 50's), and she's got a lot on her plate, but it's frustrating that this means SO MUCH to us and she acts like she has no idea who we are or what the hell is going on. She'd emailed me earlier about a non-medicated cycle, then when we met she didn't mention anything about it. Sounds like it will be medicated again (which is good).
I asked her about PGS. And man, am I glad I did. I am also a little annoyed that they never mentioned it as an option. If I wasn't on this board, I would've never known to ask. She's like, "well, statistically, its the same result, whether you transfer an abnormal embryo or throw it away." I'm thinking, well yes, statistically it is, but then at least I can avoid the false hope and then heartbreak when I get a BFN. Which, again, is a big deal to me (maybe not to them!). So, they are looking into cost and insurance coverage for us. Cost is around $5k, so the question will be if insurance will cover it. For those who have insurance coverage, was your PGS covered? DH will not go for it if its not covered. :/
Anyways, my aunt also passed away yesterday, not sure if I'd mentioned it already. She has been struggling with ALS for the past year, and the disease just took over her body and they took her off life support yesterday. We were not close, and honestly she was an alcoholic/drug addict and the black sheep of the family. But still, it is sad to see someone you've known your entire life die. She was only about 50. My mom is the oldest of 5 siblings, and this was her baby sister. No matter what questionable things she's done in her lifetime I know its really been hard on my mom. Thinking about her really does put things into perspective. It makes the infertility stuff seem a lot less important. I am so thankful for my health and my DH and other family's health!