Sticking Together Until We All Get BFP's!!!!

[Wishing1010]

SweetMelodies, that is such exciting news! I hope you all have a blast!!!!!!! Glad you are doing well, understandable that sometimes you just have nothing to post. I stopped updated my journal so much bc I have nothing to say either lol

And thanks ladies for the support in regards to DH's brother. I truly hope he can stay clean. It would mean the world to DH to have him back in his life. Both of their parents are gone so he really needs some closeness.

Awesome news in regards to Amy. I sure hope she gets the help she needs and looks forward to a brighter future.

Mdscpa, I have my FX for you! TTC is super stressful sometimes! But, it will all be worth it when we have the beautiful children to show for our hard work.

Festival was ok, nothing much to write about there lol

FX for everyone, regardless of if you are TTC, on a break, etc. Just good luck in whatever you are focusing on now.

 

[aidensmommy1]

aidensmommy1 - hmmmmmm..... i'll try to keep that in mind. and probably tell that to DH that FF might change it's mind and move the O date, that way he'll think of BD'ing more in the next couple of days just to cover our bases, lol. But that's gonna exhaust him, i think

TTC and TWW give me stress, at least for now my thoughts are all about how long my LP is and keep me away wondering whether i'm gonna get or not... I'm just disappointed not trying to chart when we started TTC'ing......

again, I feel the same way. I always wish I started charting sooner as well but u'll be ok. The tww is most definitely stressful when ur really really hoping for that bfp! That's for sure! It stresses me out like crazy some cycles but at this point I'm pretty calm just waiting for it to happen. My dh gets tired out because we usually bd for 4-6 days straight and then every other day before and after O for a few days to cover all the basis. We are NTNP at the moment so we figure this would be the perfect time to just enjoy each other and bd when we want so we aren't overwhelmed when we start really trying again. I'm just waiting for 3-4 months on enzymes and a repeat hsg and hopefullyyyy we can start trying...fx! Anyways, hopefully u won't even have to worry about ur LP and will get ur bfp instead . So far it looks to me like u prob have a healthy LP based on what u told me about ur usual cycle length and stuff. It'll prob be between 12-14 days long but can be a little longer or shorter...better if its longer rather than shorter tho. I was a huge worry bug my first cycle charting thinkin id find something wrong but I was excited at the same time lol. Is that sorta how ur feeling?

U got it right. I have lots of "what ifs" feeling. Not knowing what my temps indicate. I know it's still early on this first cycle charting but seeing what i was supposed to see gives me relief, for now lol..... I guess while TTC, it gives more knowledge about reproductive system than when i was a student, lol...... BFPs will come i know it will.

By the way, on whim i decided to take opk this evening as expected its -. I just wanna see why i'm cramping on my right side and on the middle since this is the worst one compared to the previous days. Well, maybe it's because of the hormones in my body.... Or maybe due to straight BD for 5 days now. Thinking of doing it tonight again and maybe every other day after tom's temp.

Oh, while i feel so close to you ladies......

everyone

alot of ladies still feel ovary pains for a few days following O. Its completely normal . Hopefully you'll experience the feeling of implantation shortly... FX!! And I'm happy u fele close to us u picked a good group and u are able to talk about ANYTHING and u will always have support and never be judged. This is my fav group of ladies ive ever met while ttc! I always say to dh "I wish my friends were here in real life and not just online" LOL I'm pathetic but I try to stay away from the trouble makers I hung out with growing up so its better this way . I'm happy u started charting...itll give me something to look forward to helping u out with this cycle lol. Now that I'm not so focused on myself, I've been trying to focus on u girls getting bfps lol we all deserve a bfp very much so!

 

[aidensmommy1]

Wishing, I hope u enjoyed the festival even tho its not much to write about...lol. We have our yearly town Kiwanas fair coming up on may 15th (my AF due date) lol there's always something going on when AF is due for me...anyways, we have that coming up and they have a few fun rides and a ton of games and I'm def looking forward to the fair food lol. I'm happy I get to take aiden to it now that it won't be his daddys weekend.

omgosh, so yest aiden, dh, and I were at my moms and aiden was video taping with my phone and said "this is my mom and then this is my dad" and he looked at me and then dh...it just melted dhs heart . Ive never even called him a step dad while talking to Aiden but apparently he does think of him as his dad. And last wkend I heard him say to my nephew who's 6yrs old as well, "at my other dad zacs house I have that game but my dad here is Nahum and he has this game". It was just weird and random and now he has said it two time in 1wk. It makes me happy because I know his dad wont be around for a long time and its really nice to know that he truly thinks of dh as not just a father figure but as his "dad". I told him Nahum is LIKE his dad while hes here but hes not his dad and he said "I know but Id like him to be my dad". Dh had to go to the bathroom because tears of joy came to his eyes hearing from aidens mouth that he felt that way and it was just 110% random. Dh said to him "I will be here for you whenever you need me bub". It makes me feel better about his dad being in jail knowing that he calls his dad his "other dad" and thinks of my dh as his first dad, u know? Like he calls dh by his first name but now we know how he truly feels about him. Sry I rambled on, I just had to share that. I dont think I already told u ladies he said that or not lol sry if I did At least my boy still has a good man to look up to and who he really loves. As long as aidens happy, I'm happy

 

[aidensmommy1]

So I decided to un-discard my "2dpo" temp and see what FF does because even tho my thermometer was def not working, I just wana see what FF does and maybe I did O yest when I felt something but at the same time I had all signs on CD11 like FF originally said. Who knows, maybe it'll put my CH's back where they already were after tomorrows temp but until AF shows, I'm just not going to touch anything and see if its still on even w my messed up temps from my thermometer lol. Wanted to let u all know incase u look at my chart. Also for CD12, I took my temp with 2 thermometers and one said 97.58 and the def broken one said 97.69 and I didn't know it was broken at that time and believed that one so I also switched those temps up for now and if at the end of my cycle things dont add up, I'm just going to change it back. I guess u could say I'm experimenting with how much certain things affect my bbt interpretation . Ill let u know how dif experiments go lol

 

[aidensmommy1]

aidensmommy1 - hmmmmmm..... i'll try to keep that in mind. and probably tell that to DH that FF might change it's mind and move the O date, that way he'll think of BD'ing more in the next couple of days just to cover our bases, lol. But that's gonna exhaust him, i think

TTC and TWW give me stress, at least for now my thoughts are all about how long my LP is and keep me away wondering whether i'm gonna get or not... I'm just disappointed not trying to chart when we started TTC'ing......

I just took my open circle away and FF took my CH's and it originally said I was 4dpo today. I wanted to tell u incase u wana check my chart out. I'm almost certain I did O on CD11 but I do think FF may put me as oing on CD 12 after tomorrows temp putting me at 4dpo again lol. That's what I meant earlier when I was telling u about FF needing to think more. U can see a clear shift of AT LEAST 3 higher temps but it looks like 4 but FF doesn't want to say for certain that I oed until its certain, u know? Yeah so mt charts wacky atm but hopefully tomorrow BOTH of our charts will be straightend out so we know more about our actual O dates! Lol

 

[Wishing1010]

Wishing, I hope u enjoyed the festival even tho its not much to write about...lol. We have our yearly town Kiwanas fair coming up on may 15th (my AF due date) lol there's always something going on when AF is due for me...anyways, we have that coming up and they have a few fun rides and a ton of games and I'm def looking forward to the fair food lol. I'm happy I get to take aiden to it now that it won't be his daddys weekend.

omgosh, so yest aiden, dh, and I were at my moms and aiden was video taping with my phone and said "this is my mom and then this is my dad" and he looked at me and then dh...it just melted dhs heart . Ive never even called him a step dad while talking to Aiden but apparently he does think of him as his dad. And last wkend I heard him say to my nephew who's 6yrs old as well, "at my other dad zacs house I have that game but my dad here is Nahum and he has this game". It was just weird and random and now he has said it two time in 1wk. It makes me happy because I know his dad wont be around for a long time and its really nice to know that he truly thinks of dh as not just a father figure but as his "dad". I told him Nahum is LIKE his dad while hes here but hes not his dad and he said "I know but Id like him to be my dad". Dh had to go to the bathroom because tears of joy came to his eyes hearing from aidens mouth that he felt that way and it was just 110% random. Dh said to him "I will be here for you whenever you need me bub". It makes me feel better about his dad being in jail knowing that he calls his dad his "other dad" and thinks of my dh as his first dad, u know? Like he calls dh by his first name but now we know how he truly feels about him. Sry I rambled on, I just had to share that. I dont think I already told u ladies he said that or not lol sry if I did At least my boy still has a good man to look up to and who he really loves. As long as aidens happy, I'm happy

That is so touching!!!! Made me tear up reading it! Love that he does have a fantastic father figure in his life. He sounds like he is doing just fine

 

[aidensmommy1]

I know it makes me feel SOOOO much better about everything! . Maybe this will all actually be better for Aiden. I really do feel bad saying that but I believe its the truth at this point. Now he will only see his gram 2 days in a row each month and then here and there for dinner on week nights. I think that's more then fair. She's always tried to be like aidens second mother and she needs to realize she's NOT! It'll give aiden a better routine and more stability in his life just from having her around less. If his dad actually stayed out of trouble or stays around in general and had his own place, itd be a completely dif story but even when he did take aiden, aidens gram was the one who really took care of him. He never says "I want to go see daddy"..its more like "I want to go to see noni (his gram)". So yes everything will be just fine I think. The first day I just was scared aiden would cry and everything but he seriously DOES NOT CARE!! Thank god my dh thinks of him as his own and is soo darn good to him. I'm very blessed just to have my dh here with us ive been looking at places in mass on Craigslist just to see what's out there. Maybe we'll decide to move sooner then expected but at the same time I'm scared to go anywhere because of family health issues. Its only a 1-2hr drive depending on where we moved to in Massachusetts but I like to be a 15-20min drive from the hospital tops so I can get there if needed. Hopefully my brother and my father both get better soon. My dads had health issues for years and used to make 300K/yr plus bonus's and free trips for two. He was in medical sales and now that hes been sick for years, they've lost alot and are still trying to catch up on bills and That's actually why they just got an eviction notice the same day as my brother was admitted into the hospital. Some of u asked about my parents eviction and I just realized I never told u. I wish id just win the lottery so I could take ALL their debt and money issues away!! One day I plan to make an in laws apt for them and take care of them. I hope to do this in the next 5-10yrs (unless my sister beats me to it lol). Either way, as long as one of us kids are helping them, ill be happy Heart attacks at 32yrs old run in my dads side of the family and that's who I take after most...its scary. I wish he'd get better so he can go back to work! He was so much happier financially of course but most of all, he wasn't so grumpy and didn't feel helpless. Itd make him feel soo much better if he could work again. I pray everyday that he can do it. He still has a really good job offer for ANYTIME he can take it but he cant even get out of bed until 4pm right now :-\ He used to be up at 4a.m! Anyway, that's why they got that notice...basically from back taxes and such that they have been struggling for yrs to pay off. Hopefully they will do a payment plan for my mom so they dont have to worry about it. They already took the house I grew up in (a $250,000 house!) but yet that just wasn't enough for them! Its because they auctioned it for 25k when they could have gotten a quick easy $80k if they just put an actual price on it. Ugh. Sry that makes me mad. I lived in that house from birth until aiden was 1yrs old, so for 20 years. And then my mom paid cash for the house they're in now and now because its in a co-op, the co-op wants to just take it for $3000 in land taxes. I hate this economy and how everyone is getting sick! Sorry for that book about my parents lol I couldn't remember which one of u girls asked me about it..it may have been Amy actually...any whooo....

 

[aidensmommy1]

Holy moly I really did write a book! That's the longest post ive ever written I think...and I write some long ones lol

 

[aidensmommy1]

Sry this is my 10th post in a row lol but forget what I said about my CH's going away. When I just signed back in, it put them back. That 1dpo temp taken with my second other thermometer may have been right on and then I mixed the thermometers up and just stuck w the one giving a higher temp that a.m lol. I made sure I marked this one so I don't mix them up if I ever need to do a double/triple check lol. Thank goodness this isn't a cycle I'd get irritated about if I messed up

 

[Wishing1010]

I'm so sorry your parents are having such a hard time. I wish there was a way for us all to have everything we needed to take care of our loved ones. It's hard watching them suffer and feeling like there is nothing you can do. FX it all works out in their favor. I also hope your dad's health starts to improve. FX that you all can find a home that is exactly what you need and want! we bought a house in 2012, it's small but in a great neighborhood. It does have 3 bedrooms so there is room for little ones. Our goal is to buy another house in 5 years or so that is newer, larger, and on land.

 

[aidensmommy1]

I'm so sorry your parents are having such a hard time. I wish there was a way for us all to have everything we needed to take care of our loved ones. It's hard watching them suffer and feeling like there is nothing you can do. FX it all works out in their favor. I also hope your dad's health starts to improve. FX that you all can find a home that is exactly what you need and want! we bought a house in 2012, it's small but in a great neighborhood. It does have 3 bedrooms so there is room for little ones. Our goal is to buy another house in 5 years or so that is newer, larger, and on land.

A cute small 3 bedroom house with a decent yard would be PERFECT for us. Right now we rent a duplex and out yard is huge but we just really want to own. Itd be cheaper monthly payments and we'd actually be paying for something we will own and not just paying rent every month...i cant wait! I just have to get my credit up from mistakes I made w credit cards when I was 18-21. Hopefully at tax time next yr ill have the last of my student loans paid off. That's putting a big damper on my credit score!

And thank u for ur kind words about my parents. Ive been praying for them more then anything else and I'm going to get everyone to go back to church (its been since a yr before my dad got sick since we really went!) and I feel like things will start to get better. It seems like things got hard when we stopped going to church honestly :-\. We should go back any how. I feel so good everytime I leave church when dh and I have gone a few times, just us two. And I want to teach aiden about god and have him go to church like my parents did with me. He needs to know about the lord, more so than he already does.

 

[Megamegan]

I feel for you Mary, I hope your parents go back to having an easier time, and soon. My parents also used to make a really good income, and then my mom decided to stop working because my dad was doing so well... then my dad got cancer and passed away in 2009, and my mom had the hardest time finding a job. They had to sell the house but it took several years, and now she sort of inherited her in-laws house, but still has to make payments on it, so yeah she's had a rough time. It's just amazing how things can turn around on people. DH and I are doing so well for our age right now, but I always tell him, we need to SAVE our money NOW because you never know what will happen in the future. No one plans to get sick or lose a loved one, but it can turn your life upside-down if you're not prepared.

Anyway, so.. I feel O pains tonight! And for whatever reason, I did not tell DH I was O'ing because we promised not to talk about it, but he had today off work and we BD'd twice! TWICE! Lol. I am like, what the heck? We go a whole week with nothing and then all the sudden we are both in the mood all day long. I 100% believe my body is telling me I'm ovulating and sending off pheromones to DH. Hahaha. Well, so there you have it, wasn't sure we would try but we ended up timing it perfectly, and I'll take my temp the next couple days to determine when AF should be expected. Trying so hard not to stress though. We went bowling and hiking today, but DH is super out of shape and decided not to push too hard on the hike so we didn't make it to the top of the mountain I was disappointed but I told him it's ok, we have a goal to look forward to next time. It's also really hard on my knees, so it's probably good I didn't push myself too hard either. Point being, today was a great day and I'm just so glad we didn't waste the beautiful weather by staying inside the whole time. And, we didn't argue. Lately we've both been really good at redirecting when tension starts to rise. Hopefully the night goes really well too

 

[Megamegan]

hotshot- welcome, I'm sorry I don't have any real advice on that issue... I never know what's out of place in there because it's just a mess of stuff, but if it's tender, maybe something to ask a doctor about. I hope it's not anything bad though Good luck!

 

[Wishing1010]

Not sure if this is the right place to ask.. but.. I'm TTC and I ovulated a few days ago. I did a cervix check just now while on toilet and there is a lump on the lower back (towards anus while sitting) it doesn't hurt but tender to touch. Is this pregnancy related? Has anyone heard of this?

Have you ever checked before? This may be tmi but I had Something similar happen and it ended up being that I needed to have a bowel movement. You can feel that kind of stuff when checking your cervix, especially if your stool is more hard most of the time. That's the only insight I have lol

 

[Wishing1010]

Megan, sounds like you all had a great day! And awesome job on the bowling!!! maybe he will work his way to the mountaintop before too long! Wow, 2x's?! Awesome, that's funny how you had nothing until now lol. Same thing happened to me (but only once) just a bit ago

 

[aidensmommy1]

Not sure if this is the right place to ask.. but.. I'm TTC and I ovulated a few days ago. I did a cervix check just now while on toilet and there is a lump on the lower back (towards anus while sitting) it doesn't hurt but tender to touch. Is this pregnancy related? Has anyone heard of this?

I get this same lump sometimes...it kinda feels like a bone to me and its only when my cervix is down lower. My doc looked the same day I felt it when I had a pap and she said everything was fine. I dont think I've ever heard of a lump for pregnancy on ur cervix tho. But doesn't mean ur not pregnant! good luck!

 

[Megamegan]

Haha thanks... I was really proud of myself with the bowling, because I totally suck at it and just got lucky here and there. I was so excited and didn't know he was taking a video, but I couldn't stop laughing when I saw the slow-motion jump for joy. I'm a dork.

 

[Megamegan]

Mary, what kind of phone do you have?

 

[aidensmommy1]

I feel for you Mary, I hope your parents go back to having an easier time, and soon. My parents also used to make a really good income, and then my mom decided to stop working because my dad was doing so well... then my dad got cancer and passed away in 2009, and my mom had the hardest time finding a job. They had to sell the house but it took several years, and now she sort of inherited her in-laws house, but still has to make payments on it, so yeah she's had a rough time. It's just amazing how things can turn around on people. DH and I are doing so well for our age right now, but I always tell him, we need to SAVE our money NOW because you never know what will happen in the future. No one plans to get sick or lose a loved one, but it can turn your life upside-down if you're not prepared.

Anyway, so.. I feel O pains tonight! And for whatever reason, I did not tell DH I was O'ing because we promised not to talk about it, but he had today off work and we BD'd twice! TWICE! Lol. I am like, what the heck? We go a whole week with nothing and then all the sudden we are both in the mood all day long. I 100% believe my body is telling me I'm ovulating and sending off pheromones to DH. Hahaha. Well, so there you have it, wasn't sure we would try but we ended up timing it perfectly, and I'll take my temp the next couple days to determine when AF should be expected. Trying so hard not to stress though. We went bowling and hiking today, but DH is super out of shape and decided not to push too hard on the hike so we didn't make it to the top of the mountain I was disappointed but I told him it's ok, we have a goal to look forward to next time. It's also really hard on my knees, so it's probably good I didn't push myself too hard either. Point being, today was a great day and I'm just so glad we didn't waste the beautiful weather by staying inside the whole time. And, we didn't argue. Lately we've both been really good at redirecting when tension starts to rise. Hopefully the night goes really well too

I'm happy things are going good w dh! And I did the same this cycle and plan to the next few cycles by not telling dh when I may be oing. I told him now after the fact but before I just wanted him to want to bd just for fun without O in mind at all and I was doing the same but not talking about it def makes things better, for us anyways. We both get more into it again. I think even when we start trying again, I'm going to still TRY and keep it to myself unless dh doesn't make a move on a crucial night lol then I may have to say something. Its nice having this all be so much less stressful and I love that we all are NTNP at the same time (well for the most part all of us) because I'm not looking like an outsider now lol. I hope ur knees feel better . My bfs gf has metal in her knees and she will ball her eyes out about it sometimes. I feel so bad for her. I hope urs aren't as bad as hers! Well I'm guessing not quite as bad (thankfully!!) because they told her she couldn't have kids with her knees and a few other reasons but they had one son, also at the same time as aiden and my other nephew were born but she was on bed rest alot :-\. You don't have any risks like that do u?

 

[Jrepp]

So I had written a bunch of stuff and somehow it got deleted!

Kenna- I'm glad you had fun at the festival, even if nothing reportable happened.

Mary - we want to buy a house to but we are waiting for my indian papers to be approved so we can get an indian home loan. My great, great grand father was the chief of the cherokee tribe in Oklahoma. Do you remember what thermometer is new? You should definitely get a Facebook account. If you have one already, you can delete the people you don't want on there and then set it to,private so no one can see anything on your profile until they are a friend.

Megan - it looks like you had fun. I am so glad you guys are getting along better or at least trying harder.

Hotshot - I have had lumps on my cervix before, but they weren't tender. I asked my doctor about it and she said that sometimes there is a thin layer of tissue that grows over the secretion ducts and causes a benign lump. I would have it checked out to be sure that it isn't anything bad.

AFM: my hubby bought me a new camera today that is actually really good, and the we went around the park taking pictures. I'm going to do a video blog update soon! I'm just waiting for the camera software to download onto Ronny (hubby) computer.

Amy messaged me again. I don't know if it's easier for you guys if I copy and paste, or ad lib and I can't remember what all I have told you. I'll just lump it into one current update. The psych appointment with Mike went alright, and they went to dinner afterwards. Mike was telling her about some friends that pretty much gave him an ultimatum, her or them and at that point she thought it would be easier if she just killed herself. She took a lot of Tylenol and went to sleep and then took more when she woke up. Mike has been texting and calling her while she was in the hospital. She has been really sick and in a lot of pain from the Tylenol. They can't give her any Percocet because it had Tylenol in it and she can't have any. They also gave her an antacid because she can't eat without getting nauseous. She is still waiting for a room and said when they get her in she'll be off the grid for a bit but her sister in law will keep us updated.