Looks like we're all having a rough O time (or almost O time)... I'm also just not feeling it Angel... I'm also pretty sure I O'd cd 18, not 17 like FF is saying... but either way I'm just not very positive about this time. I'm also feeling a little under the weather today, sore throat and kind of nauseous or dizzy I guess. Which I don't take as a sign of pregnancy lol because it is wayyy too early for that nonsense. The only thing keeping my hopes up just a teeny bit is all those posts you see of women who say they were so sure they were out that cycle and didn't feel pregnant at all, and then they were.
I was also kind of discouraged last night, my mother called and during the call she was like, "so I got a bill from the doctor saying you got a pregnancy test..." and in my head I was like, "s*** why are they sending my bills to my parents house?!?" I just told her I got a regular pap and they just always do a preg test (which is true, they do always do a preg test at my paps) I didn't feel like telling her that I was late on my period and my ovaries were hurting and I thought I might have a cyst and they did a preg test... anyways after my mom was like, "ok good because when I saw that I was like, 'nooo my babyyy!'" Which kind of made me feel like she will be upset if I do get pregnant anytime in the near future...
I hate letting my parents down. I know I'm young, but I ALWAYS wanted to be a young mother (probably due to my own mother having me at an older age and not being able to do all the things all my friends moms were doing). It just makes me feel so torn.
On that note, I love all the MIL talk
as some of you might know, OH's sister had a baby this past summer and I remember in the beginning she told OH and I that she sometimes felt like their stepmom was practically stealing her baby. She's totally obsessed with the little guy, but I think OH's sister is glad about it now because she really helps her out a ton. And being obsessed is better than the opposite I guess. She never had kids of her own so maybe that is part of why she is so gaga over it. She told me a while back that she wants 10 grand kids... I was like
honestly though, I would have no problem with that many kids if she got us a large house, a nanny, and college money haha. Which is not happening...