I'm 90% over my fears now, maybe even more. Finally getting to see a baby, good heart beat and literally perfect (to the day) measurements. I think I can just about let go of my panic and fear from last fall....
Sadly, I just found out my best friends was also pregnant, just 2 weeks behind me. we live an hour apart so don't see each other often, but talk....
Her due date would have been my b day....her son who's 2 1/2 was conceived on my 30th bday.
I texted her the pics and the good news and she told me that she just got back from an ultrasound, she was 10 weeks but the baby died at 8.
She hadn't told me that she was preggo, she had MC last year, and was just waiting til the 12th week, cuz she was scared....
I felt awful that I sent her those pics and all the good news and stuff. I know since I didn't know she was pregnant I didn't do anything wrong, but she's like my sister, we've known each other 28 years. She said not to feel bad but it's impossible not to. This was all via text as she had just found out and want able to speak yet, which I understand, I was the same way for a. few days.
I know the pics I sent probably made her sad, I would be sad. I am sad, I cried a little for her.
I feel so relieved and happy, yet upset at the same time...they've been ttc for a year now. What a crushing blow.
I just feel really positive for this month. Hoping this is it....Wish me luck ladies!!
Sending you positive vibes for this cycle!
