So sorry you have had to go through that twice Hungry. Luckily with our first MC it was early so I miscarried naturally.
I'm guessing your in the same boat, out doctor has said no testing until we have had 3 Losses. So feeling in complete limbo. I guess your feeling the same?
Like you I must say I'm a bit more relaxed this month, only because I'm so fed up with it all and the disappointment ttc seems to bring. I'm just at the point where I want to live my life again as ttc really takes over.
I always get annoyed when AF shows. I used to cry and it was a huge pitty party. Last month I just felt angry for a day that was it.
So feeling the urge to test here but 9dpo is far too early!
I know. After the first MMC, I kinda stopped exercising for almost half a year cos I was worried it would stop me from conceiving. And of course I was rather depressed being the first pregnancy, first loss and D&C. I started working out again only a few months before the 2nd. And was very careful this time. Didn't do any strenuous exercises and only walked. I wasn't happy as i was a very active person before all this.
After the 2nd D&C, I just went screw it. I've stopped my life for way too long for nothing to happen. So started increasing my work outs to 80% of before TTC. So it's been 3 plus months of me trying to get my life back and not stop it in case I get pregnant. It was not easy for sure to get to this mindset.
I was kinda lucky. My doc tested the fetus for the first because it happened at 11 weeks. Inconclusive though. Second she tested because if it was inconclusive she would send me for extensive tests but it came back as a trisomy loss. So she felt there was no need to investigate further at this point. I do hope though that there isn't any underlying problems..... I think it sucks to have to experience 3 before any testing is done. That's 2 losses that could have been avoided. I'm sorry it's that case for you.
I refuse to test early as I hate seeing bfn Hahaa sorry for the rambling!