Hi ladies. After debating with myself for quite a while, I decided to give it another go this cycle, right away following my early miscarriage. It was really tough trying to decide because as much as I do want to become a mother, the MC hit me quite hard and it made me want to take a break from TTC and just focus on myself for a while.
However when CD11 rolled around (which is 2 days before my usual ovulation day), I just had this feeling that we should go for it and we BD that day. The only time during my fertile window this cycle.
I dont know how great our chances are with only hitting O-2, however from what I’ve read it might actually be the best day to BD (for whatever reason), so who knows.
The MC has rattled me to a point where I now feel a little more indifferent towards whether I will become pregnant this cycle or not. I’d be happy, especially since we would get to announce to his family on christmas, but if not I won’t be that crushed. I will then take time off TTC during November and possibly even December (or go with NTNP), then try again for the new year.
Testing
11th of November!
I feel like I have come out of this whole thing stronger. I will now be able to appreciate a healthy pregnancy much more, and won’t take it for granted in the slightest.
Also... I feel even closer to my bf now, like it’s bound us together on a much deeper level. The morning of the MC, him holding me as I was sobbing, and looking up and seeing tears rolling down his face as well - this tough man, who I’ve seen cry maybe once in all our years together...crying over our early loss. I love him so much more now, for some reason. Seeing him become and be a father will literally be the best thing to ever have happened in my life.
And one last thing...WTF! I didn’t think the mc would make my BBT’s soo damn whacky. Compared to last cycle, where my temps were so steady and beautiful, this chart is just completely nutso.