aidensmommy1
Mom to 2/Wife to be! <3
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Snshine, in sorry hun.. I know your feelings of almost wanting to cancel ur appt. Its been a hard struggle for me, as it is for us all, and ive procrastinated appts because I was too overwhelmed to find out anymore bad news, u know? Maybe an HSG would help u...? One of ur tubes could have a SLIGHT blockage that could be cleared from the dye during the hsg. Just something to mention to ur doc if ur interested.
I'm currently on cycle #22 and my DS can def notice my depression sometimes and I hate that! My DS is 6, almost 7, and he wants a sibling sooooo badly as well and that makes me sad that I can't give him one yet. I keep telling him to pray to god and one day it'll happen. As u said, its hard to know what to say to a young child. I have faith it'll happen for you and I both. I had trouble conceiving DS as well. I tried for a baby a total of 2 1/2 yrs before Aiden was conceived. I believe coming off of b/c and cysts were my issues back then. Now its my only remaining tube being blocked :-\. I still have alot of hope that it'll happen for me though and same for you. Keep your head up hun. I def feel your frustration.
Whether you keep ur appt or not is 100% ur decision but I'd def think about keeping it, only so u can talk over options and such and maybe get an HSG to "clear the pipes" (thats how my doc described it lol). And IF DHs SA happens to not be perfect, I know fertilaid for men and quite a few other natural meds can help increase sperm count. Sometimes its a very easy fix.
Hopefully you'll feel better soon! About every 2-3 cycles, I start to feel down and like it'll never happen but i always manage to bounce back, and i know you will as well. You did this for 22 months with DS & that alone tells me your a very strong woman! Its not easy going through all of this but I believe we'll appreciate our LO's THAT much more just because we had to work sooo incredibly hard for them that we'll never want to miss a single moment, u know what I mean? Thats one of my little sayings that gets me through my days of TTC. Knowing a LO to love and cherish will come out of this long struggle is what keeps me going every cycle.
Anyway, enough with my blabbering...lol. I truly hope you feel better soon. I hope we all are relieved from this TTC pressure and sadness, asap! FX for this cycle!!! And LOTS of dust your way!
oh btw, do u temp?
Thank you. It is nice to be included in a forum where other people can understand what I am going through. There are so many people around me getting pregnant with their second babies, when their first baby just turned a year old. 6 people in a week and a half on Facebook announced their pregnancies and it just makes me feel like such a failure as a woman, you know? That my body is incapable of doing what it was made to do.
To answer your question, I used to temp. It affected my sleep and it drove me nuts because I would have great charts and then still get BFN.
DH and I went into TTC #2 with a laid back approach. But then each month, my body is throwing curve balls at me and it's hard to not get disappointed in the whole process. We have changed our eating habits, I started a prenatal back in March, tried baby aspirin half way through last month, even tried Mucinex this month and still no luck. I am from a fertile family. My sister got pregnant on the pill and I am the third child in my family...an "oops" seeing as my mom only had half of an ovary due to a lot of issues.
To get a little more personal...my son has cystic fibrosis. He was diagnosed when he was 20 days old. We went through so much when he was a baby and DH and I never thought that we would have another just because of the plain and simple fact of the possibility of bringing another child into this world with the disease. (There is a 1 in 4 chance). We said when DH turned 4 we would talk about it, but then when my period was late at the beginning of 2014 and DH was about to turn 3, we had a change of heart. We didn't want CF affecting the family that we had planned for when we got married. And as crazy as it sounds...the day before I was to have my IUD out, I had a dream that I gave birth to a baby girl and that she didn't have CF. So, why God would change my heart and then put me through this is beyond me. Again, I know that I haven't been through half of what others TTC have, but I still have a hard time dealing with the reality of it all. I have been putting off too much in the off chance that I do become pregnant and I know I need to change that. Whether or not I keep the appt at the end of the month is still to be determined and it's something that I need to have a heart to heart with DH about. I will get through this, just as I have with everything else difficult in my life.
Very well said. I completely feel you. Dh and I weren't even thinking about TTC and then we had a "scare" and suddenly we both wanted a baby SO bad after that and we actually thought it'd be easy. LOL! So much for that!
And no matter how long you've been TTC, its hard! When you want something so badly, it can make time feel like it stops. I know I got just as sad when I was only at 4 cycles TTC as I get now at 22 cycles. Yearning for a baby stays the same.
I'm so sorry to hear about what you went through with DS. That couldn't have been easy for you as a mother. And poor DS
. My heart goes out to your family hun. I do believe there is a reason that you and DH decided to try for another and I think you'll get your answer soon with a big fat positive!
I'm hoping this is the case for me as well! I was perfectly content with never having another child after my right ovary/tube removal and then one day it was like BOOM! Dh and i both wanted a baby more than anything. This couldn't have "just happened" for either of us. There's a reason our hearts turned back to wanting another. You'll be in my prayers that you get that healthy little girl that you dreamt of before you know it . GL!Oh and I completely know what u mean about everyone falling pregnant around u! All 3 of my bffs got pregnant and have now given birth during the time ive been struggling to get pregnant. :-\. It's very hard to watch and I don't think anything can turn that feeling off inside, other than a BFP. They actually called 2014 the "Baby Boom" because everyone was falling pregnant. Its hard not to feel jealous or hurt over other pregnancies while TTC. But baby dust is definitely in the air and I hope it reaches the rest of us soon! FX!
oh and breasts are veiny too 
. Even if u had a.m sickness in previous pregnancies, (not sure if u had any) it can differ every pregnancy. I bet everything is just fine. My mother or sister didn't experience A.M sickness either and all pregnancies were completely healthy 
(well now I feel weird, but hopefully you get the point)
Think I should be thinking myself lucky that im feeling okay right now.... 
