Sticking Together Until We All Get BFP's!!!!

[Jrepp]

Sorry Mary I don't trust my temps right now because it's cold outside and we turned the heat on last night for the first time in weeks, and I guess I just try not to trust temps very much, the most important thing is AF showing or not.

I have had my usual slight cramps and twinges that I get a couple days before AF, starting yesterday. Today is 12 dpo and I got a BFN, which was expected. I'm bummed but yesterday was really rough, I barely got myself out of bed and finally my husband told me to stop letting it control my life, get up and realize it's not that terrible. He's right, but he also doesn't understand how it feels that my body is letting us both down each month. Anyway, today the plan is to get a ton of stuff done no matter what. Hope everyone else is feeling good and has a nice Friday

I dont trust YOUR temps either lol. They fooled me so bad last cycle! (as they did u!). My temps never usually mess with me, they just dont go in a nice pattern like ever but your chart almost looked text book to a bfp chart last cycle! I was just in total shock when AF showed for u! I still can't get over that! Lol. My chart def wasn't looking as good as ur last months chart was tho. I know after the 6 long months of temping that temps def hold VERY little meaning until u get a bfp or AF shows but I wanted a pretty chart with OR without a bfp for once lol. I wish I would have started temping right away but I guess it truly wouldn't have mattered because of my tube being blocked. But yeah, for me, if my temp would have stayed up, I def would have thought it was a pregnancy sign but I will never believe one of ur charts again until ur BFP show lol. Ur chart made me very angry last cycle! Lol. It really did tho. It played a cruel trick on u! But at least u found out how high normal temps for u can be for you. My temps are all lower than they usually are, I just liked the pattern it WAS going in.

I am so extremely irritable today!! Ugh. And yest I was too. I just have this tense feeling through my body and all last night and from when I woke up today, I just feel like breaking down crying. AF must be on the way and Im pms'ing or something. Idk what else it could be cuz nothing bad happened yest to cause this...the feeling just came over me :-\. So I guess I cant blame it all on my temp this a.m since I was having mood swings yesterday but my temp was something to b**** about this a.m. Lol. Ive been wanting to go for acupuncture after hearing how u feel so stress free after. I need that so bad! Even on my happiest days, I can FEEL stress and anxiety and tension just build up in my back, neck, and arms. Something needs to be done!!

I got a bfn this morning as well mega. I'm 11dpo. I expected it as well tho. Now I only have my two digis left so we'll see if AF is late and if so, ill pull out the big guns and skip searching for a line.

Ive been so sick of everything that has to do with ttc since 5 cycles ago (cycle #6). I think at that time I just hit a point where it was stupid to obsess and I learned obsessing and staring at tests would not make a bfp come any faster! Lol. I think we.all hit the point where we just don't go crazy with ttc. Of course we will all have exciting cycles sometimes and get pumped up anyways ill always have my hope & faith no matter how fed up I am.

wow this was a long post. Idk what's wrong with me! I hate this feeling inside! I had it for the first 4 wks preggers w aiden BUT I also get anxiety on my own ALOT so anxiety will never be a good pregnancy sign for me.

Any whoo, what r all u ladies planning to do for Easter?

My hubby works until 2 and I will be just hanging out in my bed at my moms house. I think we are going to do an egg hunt for my nephew but I'll probably skip it. What are you planning on?

I emailed the doctor today to ask for more Percocet. Hubby says she won't give me more, but we will see. I never ask for pain meds so she knows I must be hurting.

 

[Megamegan]

Mary, in response to your friends post.... First of all, if I didn't work, I would have no friends besides those of DH, too. But I'm different because I've always been a loner, not really someone who wanted to party or be around people much, just a couple very close friends and a boyfriend. But occasionally I feel sorry for myself and remember it is important to maintain friendships. Making friends is the hard part! The majority of my social interaction is work. The best way to meet new people is to join something, whether it is a mommy's group of some kind, or getting Aiden involved in something where there are other mothers, or a class for a hobby that interests you, such as exercise, crafting, outdoor activities.... you are in a new age group now where people act like adults and new friends will not affect your sobriety unless you meet them at bars or shady places. If you make the effort, I bet you'll see that really nice people are never going to push you to get involved in something you're uncomfortable with, including drinking/drugs. I think my best recommendation is to either volunteer (examples are animal shelters, hospitals, library, homeless shelters) or even look for community events online for things you're interested in- just give yourself the opportunity to be around people and eventually you'll start getting invited to things and vice versa. If you're naturally social, finding friends will be easy! I'm naturally introverted so if I go to these things, I'm super uncomfortable and usually just annoyed with people... lol. I'm sure you're different though. Good luck

 

[aidensmommy1]

Thank u Megan and yeah ive been basically like u described my whole life...like I did have alot of friends but it was just like a group of 10 ppl that I ALWAYS hung out with (including a boyfriend). And I get uncomfortable trying to make plans with moms at aidens school too but that's just because I know NOTHING about them yet so its hard.for me to approach random ppl but Im sure ill meet some when I start yoga next month. I won a free month membership for yoga and have yet to use it and I figured starting it in the next two wks would be perfect! Especially since im working on strategies for releasing stress. I'm really overall happy with the friends I do have, I guess its probably just because they're all pregnant so I dont like being around them much yet. I just wish they didn't find out they were pregnant the same month I found out I may never get pregnant unless I have 20grand to dish out. That's what irks me most about them being pregnant RIGHT now. I still talk to my very best friend but I would like to hangout w her more but both of us share cars with our dhs and they r with the car at work half the day. Anyways, I just took a nice nap and am feeling a little better for the time being. Ive been soo overly tired the past two days. I wonder if AF will be earlier, on time, or later with me taking vitex...it feels like it could come earlier.

And for Easter I think aiden will be at his dads It sucks. But I have 12 nieces and nephews and his dad lives near my sisters and that's where we all go for Easter dinner so usually I pick Aiden up for an hr and we do a huge 500 egg hunt. My sister has a little farm so the kids have a really fun long hunt every yr and it'll be nice spending the day with my Mom. She's been really depressed and that's probably part of my anxiety right now. She overweight with diabetes, she does not need all this stress on her back all the time. I wish I could take it all away from her but its over my dad b****Ing all the time at her and they just got an eviction notice and I can't do anything about it. It makes me feel helpless. But at least ill have all day sunday to just relax with her and make sure everyone just leaves her alone! She's the rock of the family that everyone turns to when they need help or have issues. Well they are all going to have to ask someone else sunday and I'm going to make sure of it! Lol so I think it'll be a good Easter

 

[iBeach]

...... I am out of here. I feel like I don't belong here anymore

I wish you all the best and lots of BFP to come your way.

 

[MolGold]

Aidensmommy - yes u did make the healthy choice! I recently have quit smoking to start TTC, and it alienates me from my two unmarried girlfriends who cant undertand 1. quitting 2. TTC but I tell myself if they can't undertand me making a healthy choice then I can wait to make new friends who do - hopefully I will be a new mommy and meet others And you always have us!!

 

[MolGold]

...... I am out of here. I feel like I don't belong here anymore

I wish you all the best and lots of BFP to come your way.

Hey! Hope you are ok.. We all feel let down at some point but do not lose hope yet.. we all are here for you, whether or not you are TTCing..

 

[aidensmommy1]

...... I am out of here. I feel like I don't belong here anymore

I wish you all the best and lots of BFP to come your way.

why, what's wrong?! Your one of the originals from this thread! We love u!!

Is it something with ur donor? Gosh it seems like we all are having a rough time with ttc right now and let down . Its so sad we all have to go through this!

 

[chelsealynnb]

So I caved and tested today. I swear I see something but I'm scared to get my hopes up...too late. I tweaked it. This pic was taken about 4-5 mins after I dipped it. Opinions?

 

[Wishing1010]

Ibeach, please don't leave! Please stay here, we will support you and help you keep up hope!!!!


Chelsea, I def see something but it's hard to tell with how the test is pitted and stuff. POAS again!

 

[chelsealynnb]

I'm going to test again in the morning I know how wishy-washy these tests can be though

 

[Wishing1010]

Hello girls...

I haven't been posting much but I am reading what is going on. I feel like I have nothing to share, since I am only inseminating couple of days out of month and otherwise don't have any symptoms.
I think we are gonna try another month and call it a day if it doesn't work.
Maybe it wasn't meant to be...

I am now CD5.....my last two cycles have been 31/32 days...I don't understand why. I was always 28 days until I started TTC....
I should be O on the 29th, but will start inseminating on the 23rd or so....just in case.

It could just be the stress of TTC that is causing your cycles to be off.

 

[MolGold]

Chelsea, I see something too - FX for your BFP. Do post your test with FMU

 

[chelsealynnb]

...... I am out of here. I feel like I don't belong here anymore

I wish you all the best and lots of BFP to come your way.

I hope you end up staying

 

[chelsealynnb]

Chelsea, I see something too - FX for your BFP. Do post your test with FMU

Will do, for sure. Here is the link to use tools if you want to check it out & vote

https://www.countdowntopregnancy.com/pregnancy-test-gallery/image.php?galleryid=258575

 

[Wishing1010]

Mary, I am the same way... You ladies are my only friends outside of my family. I can't deal with the immature party lifestyle that my "friends" are all wanting to do. That's not me and they are all still doing it. I'm hoping to meet real friends if we ever have a LO...maybe at play groups or church or something.

 

[aidensmommy1]

Mary, I am the same way... You ladies are my only friends outside of my family. I can't deal with the immature party lifestyle that my "friends" are all wanting to do. That's not me and they are all still doing it. I'm hoping to meet real friends if we ever have a LO...maybe at play groups or church or something.

exactly. I feel like ive grown up and all my old friends are just stuck at age 18 lol

 

[Jrepp]

I'm the same way too.

Ibeach don't leave!

New post up on eventual momma

 

[AmySan]

IBeach noooo!! Please stay!! You belong here as much as any one of us!!!!

 

[SweetMelodies]

Well... The witch got me. I just don't know anymore. I'm tired. I lost it after my temp dropped, cried for a while. I don't know how you ladies do it. You're all so strong.

 

[AmySan]

No news on anything really PG symptom wise....I got up in the middle of the night to eat ice cream....

Yesterday's ablation was a success!! My foot hardly hurts if at all - right after it didn't hurt at all!

However, my back is horrifically sore. I went to 2 urgent cares - one said they couldn't give me anythiong but tramadol which does nothing for me..the 2nd said to go to the er (Oh and when I asked dr he said no) sooo we went to Rose, and they were so nice (i could hardly walk it was sooo bad, still it) they gave me a to go bottle of percocet and a 5 pill script, and a shot in the butt of dilaudid. It helped a lot.

However, this morning...Mike forgot to set his alarm...we slept until 10!! I was like nooooo....I texted my boss...I hate the girls at work except 1...she even brought a few vicodin for me lol...but fricken EVERYONE was talking shit about me, and saying 'it is so hard when someone isn't here...and why did she schedule it for thursday' (when i was in icu for 2 days in jan, not one person asked if i was ok - same with today...i bought THEM thank you cards for covering for me) but one stupid bitch had to go to a funeral for her husbands grandma (yeah) and left for 5 days, and had to leave THAT day. SHE was the one bitching the most..s.aying she wanted to be sympathetic, etc. Bullshit. So i sent me boss an email about all of it. It really is just too much. Nobody has talked to me today. Nobody has asked how I am, nothin. Shon (woman) and i have our own friendship - then 5 of the other girls have theirs. It's really hard...with so many women.

Argh. I wish we hadn't slept in. I don't know if in that case they would be at least somewhat nice. I dunno. I am over it. So mean!

Getting my hair done tonight at 6...which I am excited for...at least i will feel pretty...will post pictures maybe later

I consider you guys my closest friends...we literally share everything, the most intimate of details, lol...down to CM, haha!! Ibeach, please don't leave. It's hard enough when people with BFPs wander away...i know I will be here every day still whenever that day comes!!

love you all