Hello my lovelies
good grief I feel like I've been "gone" for forever
I've missed ya sweeties! I won't bore you with all the details...suffice it to say my Disney weekend was total crap. Dh and I still not on the best terms, and I deserve a damn new vacation! Only instead dh going away for the weekend with his buddy. Jerk. And instill haven't ov'd. Cd-freaking-23 now. I never have cycles this long. May have ov'd today but I thought I ov'd tues too and turns out I didn't. I'm just all messed up. Doc says all my new bloodwork came back "normal". I'm sick of that too. Not that I WANT something wrong with me, I just want to know what's going on and have a reason why the ivf didn't work and be able to fix it.
anyway, I'm waiting for a new meds schedule from my nurse. I expect I'll get it pretty soon. I think I'll have to start bcp's again in november most likely.
Anyway, I'll get back into the groove here with my lovely ding dongs. I've had a really rough time of it emotionally. I bought 3 new candle sconces (just tea light size) to put on the wall for our 3 embabies and I haven't been able to bring myself to actually put them up.
I just want to do something to recognize that they were here for a little while. I'm sorry I'm making my first post in a while a selfish one. We visited my baby brother over the weekend. His wife just had their 3rd lo... 6 days old. She's beautiful...so tiny and precious. I'm so happy for them but so sad for us too.
I'm so afraid this next ivf won't work either. That devastation is too much to bear. .... I better stop or I'll keep getting more morose.
Poppy, I'm praying for you sweetie. You've had a terrible week but it's going to get better love
Tink, coral, pc, babyd, MC, phoebs, hopes, china, Laura, babyhopes, sleeping, damita, caz, lew, Jenny... Massive
for all of you. I'll get back to proper posting this weekend.