8dpo, time is crawling by. At 6dpo, I felt all kinds of symptoms....yesterday and today nothing more than feeling tired, but that could be anything. It's incredible how fast we forget things, I remember when trying to conceive #1 every cycle, I was convinced I had symptoms. Realizing this has actually helped me relax a bit. All cycle long our bodies are either preparing to ovulate or menstruate....I need to drill this into my head...for my own sanity! I really thought ttc #2 would be so much easier on my emotions, but honestly I feel as if it's been harder. I had early symptoms with my first so I've convinced myself it will be the same this time around, if I feel something I think I'm pregnant, if I feel nothing, I either tell myself "oh it's because it's different this time" then moments later I start feeling down. What an incredible journey. I guess I just needed to rant a bit, sorry ladies. I've written on so many posts, encouraging women to stay positive, and try to enjoy this journey because it has the potential of bringing us and our partners closer together, but when I'm in my own head....I find it so hard to enjoy any of it. Whether it's your first cycle trying or you 35th cycle trying life becomes all about ttcing, days go by, we start thinking of everything in cdwhatever or dpowhatever. I think yesterday and today have been hard on me, and it's me doing this to myself. I visited the ntnp forum to find some inspiration on just letting things flow....but even in that forum it's seems most are obsessing. Again, sorry for the useless post. I hope I haven't brought anyone down....really I'm just sharing my feelings of today. Tomorrow I may feel optimistic and may have a different outlook.
Well my dear!!! You have summed my thoughts and feelings in a big nutshell!! Since 6dpo I've just given up... I get excited one minute, the next I'm like "its not gonna happen". The days and nights are long, frustrations, obsessing about whether u are preggies or not, feeling symptoms that may well be for something else... U get tired of it and just wish u could wake up with a BFP already!!! If someone could cut the tension all of us have right now, the anticipation, the anxiety, they'd need a diamond cutter... Because no metal can cut through! So much going on... Yet the end result, if successful is worth it all.
I am lucky to have my DS, having #2 would be amazing!!! Some people ask me why I want ANOTHER child coz I already have one... How do I explain? Lol no one knows what it is like to long for a child, be it #1 or #8 its just there!!!! Some of us don't dream of being astranauts, we get content with being mothers.
Today I'm 9dpo, bored to death at home waiting for next week when AF is due... But I have given up, I won't lie... Its too much... I might feel different later on in the day
Anyway, I just went on my own rant... Just one of those days.
I really pray we all get our bfp's.