Fx Pdubs!
Yesterday I felt kind of freaked out, despite my own advice I can't stay away from google. It's just my boobs did not hurt yesterday, and they seemed to de swell....then I thought well I went to the bathroom 4 days in a row, so I started panicking.
Supposedly a sudden symptom loss in the 8th week is no biggie, but then I find all these women that lost symptoms and got bad news at their next scan.
I also looked up whether chemicals fall into the recurrent MC category, and it's up for debate. Most docs technically don't count it, yet still monitor you early because of it (but I guess don't do any extra testing other than early scan)....
I know I know, just relax...
I want to but I can't. Ooh, then to top it off, yesterday I not only ate my dinner in full, but part of Jason's. I've been force feeding myself cuz I'm hungry but nothing sounds God and he's been worried I'm not eating enough for even a non preggo.....
Then I fell asleep by 9, which is early, woke up at 3 am, went back to sleep and woke back up at 9 - boobs full and sore again.

Yesterday I was SO tempted to go to the hospital, just to get a scan, but I thought lying about my situation (like saying I had spotting when I didn't) would just be bad karma or something...
I do think I may try to get my next Thursday appt changed to Tuesday though, cuz this is killing me.
Well at least I'm still freakingacting like a total nut job , no change there.

I'm working less this week, so it just gives me more time to google.

I need an intervention