I agree with poppy about the preseed. But you're right too...don't need as much as the directions recommend. I thought the red raspberry tea was only supposed to be used before ov??? I thought that it can cause uterine contractions so it wouldn't be good after ov as it could prevent implantation. 
maybe I've got it mixed up with something else....I've read up on SO MANY different things now...
we did do 1 cycle of ivf last September. Good grief I can't believe it's been such a long time ago now, it seems. 
all of my tests continue to come back normal although I have not had the HSG (the test for making sure tubes are clear) or laparoscopy done. We're almost completely positive I have endometriosis (rather than pcos 
) but we didn't do the other 2 tests to confirm or check tubes as ivf basically bypasses both problems anyway. You dont have to have clear tubes for ivf and the egg retrieval takes the eggs out of the poison environment that the endo causes for the fertilization. Anyway, we had a chemical pg with the ivf back in sept. 
we had 3 embryos transferred. It just wasn't meant to be. we've been trying to save up to try again, but other money issues/expenses keep getting in the way. We have to pay taxes this year for the first time ever in my life. And I earned half the amount of money I usually do. It's a hard concept to wrap my mind around. anyway, like I said, we keep praying for a miracle as ivf feels/seems out of our reach to do again for now. It's so very depressing. We're still trying "naturally" but that puts such a strain on our relationship for timing. I told dh that after may, I don't want to keep "trying" naturally anymore. It's just too much. I'm such a wreck of emotions. One day I'm hopeful and the next I'm hopeless (like today, can you tell? ) I did an hpt this morning, and it was 
(of course).
yeah, it's really a "one-day-at-a-time" thing for me. I have no doubt that God has a plan with it all... I just really feel past the point now where it's something I can look at objectively and handle calmly or rationally. not just b/c of the length of time or the issues that we have that are preventing it from happening, but I'm still not fully over putting out $15k cash with nothing to show for it. We drained our savings. I'm sorry I'm really just complaining now. 
every cycle I spend the first several days of af in tears and dh feels like a failure and less of a man. it's awful. And now I find myself getting angry sometimes, thinking I DON'T WANT to be one of those "stories" of .... "well as soon as we stopped thinking about it and relaxed..." b/c I just think that's a bunch of bs. It has nothing to do with that for us. And besides, when it's something you desire so desperately, I don't believe it's possible to just "stop thinking about it." and im really sick of people saying that...or that we should just be grateful for what we have or that we're making it not happen by trying so much or by stressing about it.... Ugh!!!!! the ivf really taught me that we have NO control in this process whatsoever. It is totally in God's hands. Buuuuut..... (like I've told dh) we can't pray for a miracle and then not bd at the appropriate times (this is not going to be any immaculate conception, ya know 
). Or we can't pray for a way to do ivf and never try to save. Don't get me wrong...we are doing both. ..... Ahhh I'm just venting. Like I said, not having a good day. Some days, I feel God is teaching about contentment and that I can really say I "get" it. And really I am...I CAN BE, or I WILL be content if things stay as they are. But it doesn't mean I won't hurt if it never happens for us. Mostly for my dh, as I know how much this would mean to him. 
!!! 
Thanks eesoja
and thanks sweetie and to think a year and a half ago, he had 22 million. What I wouldnt give to have a number like that now. That was still extremely low, but workable. We could have at least done IUI. I hate this and to make matters worse, the girl I'm interpreting for this morning is 8 months pregnant. I interpreted for her last summer and she wasn't pregnant. Now she's almost full-term. She's young. Single. Life f-ing sucks.
to you PK and Eesoja 
girls happy Friday woopp think this will be my last drink this weekend because i am about to ovulate wooppp got a darkish line but not very dark yet x x x
congratz sweetie 
