Feeling pretty down today. It's officially 14 years of trying now. Yesterday a few of my family members asked me when we were going to have kids, why we didn't have any, did we want them, could we have them, etc., and it was just hard. I hate being around family for the holidays for this very reason. Last year one of my cousins just blurted out "you all know Pepper can't have any kids anyway" from another room while i was in the kitchen serving food. I don't even know why my name was mentioned or what the conversation was about. It's just hard. Today I feel hopeless and so, so, so sad. I've tried everything and nothing has worked. I think I'm going to give it until my birthday in August of next year, and if I'm not pregnant by then, it will be time to give up.
Thanks for letting me vent today.